Stick to the Shadows (HxH)

2: Illumi's Needle

Rilluma's P.O.V

He was trying to stop my blood bath and it made me furious. We were trained to kill anything, so why don't we use our training properly. No matter what he said, I wanted to kill and that is what I was going to do. Unfortunately Killua and his smart ass attitude always wins against me. 

"Rill. You need to calm down." he ordered.

"Why should I? A true assassin kills anything that gets them mad." I growled baring my long teeth. My agitation was showing just like I wanted it to, but Killua knows that I wouldn't try to hurt him. He can get me so angry, and nothing will cause him pain from that. It's just not very fair. 

"No. That is what a serial killer does." he was right as usual. Like always, I didn't listen. Still I tried to prove I was right in a argument that there was no way I was going to win. I chuffed and lowered my head in slight defense. 

"Stop with your logic and just move so I can finish the job" I yelled.

"No." I charged at him in anger trying to get past him but he countered moving to the side. His nails were extended and they cut deep into my shoulder before he grabbed me by the scruff. I tried to bite Killua's arm, but he then held my mouth shut with his strength preventing me from moving. The sound of a baby distracts me making me snap to look at the infant. Taking this chance Killua hit me on the top of the head and held my neck so I could look back at the baby. 

"Let me go." I snarled trying to get out of Killua's grasp. 

"Rilluma. Take a look. The child is scared of what you will do." Killua told me. My eyes widened. He was getting me flustered again. Every single time he will do this to me. It's sad, but I can't just see what I am doing is wrong. I was raised this way. 

"No, it's crying because of . . of . . ." I didn't know where I was going with it, but I wanted to prove to him that I was not doing anything wrong. Even though I know he was right. 

"It's crying for fear of death."

"No . . no."

"Yes." He was right as usual. I could feel my guard dropping, but I couldn't calm myself. I still needed to kill. The blood that was splattered all over me made it worse. I was covered with the stench of death, and I could only let it guide me to kill more. My form moved and when I was done, once again, I was human. My long silver hair and my mouth still smelling and tasting of blood, but I can just try to stop myself. Once human, I buried Killua in a large hug. 

"Thank you." I said with tears in my eyes. "But we should go."

"Agreed." Then Killua and I began walk away leaving the women and the infant alone with the bodies of their captors lying bloodily on the floor. 

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After I got back home, I got all the blood off in the shower. I threw on some white pajamas with cupcakes on them just so I can stay a little comfy. Despite how I look in my outfit of sweets, I feel like I was hit by the bus of realization. I was about to kill an infant and my brother just for the fun of it. My heart's still beating with the need to kill. Maybe I could get Illumi to help me.

I left my room and made my ways to Illumi's. I wasn't sure what he could do to help me but he is my trainer. Plus, Milluki was not going to be my choice. Sure he is smart and very resourceful. I love him and all, but I don't think I can trust him with my little plan just yet. Telling him would me he would tell grandpa and then I would get in trouble for not wanting to kill as bad. When I do make it to Illumi's door my heart is in my throat. Slowly I reached up and knocked. Illumi opened and looked at me with a confused glare.

"Hey Ill. Can I come in?" I asked him. For a second he didn't say anything, but then he nodded letting me through.

"Just sit on the end of the bed." He advised. I did as I was told but I couldn't do it calmly. My heart rate was fast and my fingernails were digging into my skin. As much as I hated coming for help, I didn't want to lose control again. Illumi sat next to me. "What's up Rill?" I breathed a few times before answering.

"How do I stop killing?" I asked him. He shook his head.

"Killing is what we do. You can't just stop it. Why do you ask?"

"I tried to kill Killua and that baby. I couldn't stop when I needed to." I explained and he nodded in response.

"I am aware of your problem Rilluma, and I was working on a way to fix that." My eyes lit up.

"So you can help!?" I was so excited. Illumi didn't act as surprised making me question this method that he was going to use on me. I didn't want to become some kind of lab rat, but I need to fix this as soon as possible before I hurt someone.

"I can't just stop you from wanting to kill, but I can stop you from going overboard. This method makes it so I can control you and give you orders to stop." He explained.

"Killua?"I asked. 

"He never has to know. We can keep it a secret from him." Illumi promised.

"Okay. So how will you do it?" I asked. He walked over to a desk in the corner of his room and picked up a small needle about twice the length of a sewing needle. He sat next to me once again and showed me the pin.

"I put the needle into the back of your neck, through your nervous stem, and slightly into the brain of the other side. That way, I can get total control of your brain and I can give you messages through your brain within a certain distance.

"What if I don't follow your orders?" I was thinking about it. Even if I'm all worried, Illumi didn't seem like he was going to think of it as a problem.

"Don't worry. You won't. I am certain that you will not overcome it." He said with a emotionless glare. I nodded and motioned for him to use it. "It might pinch. Just try to keep calm." I was scared of what it would feel like, but I trusted Illumi. For the most part. 

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