Stick to the Shadows (HxH)

22: Catch the Thief

Rilluma's P.O.V

Shooting up from the shock caused my heart to beat fast.  My breathing was heavy and my eyes shook. The memories of what I did, the secret that Killua kept for so long, reminded me of a terror. A terror that has followed me through every minute of every day, every second of every job. It is the fear of myself. Killua's eyes opened and he looked over to me. Zoldycks are light sleepers.

"What's the matter?" he asked. I put my hand over my heart and clenched the clothing over it. He watched me waiting for something to happen. "Another nightmare?" he asked me. I nodded and stood up from the couch. There was no way I was going to be able to go back to sleep after that. I shook my head and walked over to the book shelf. My eyes was attracted to a book "Medical Care: Human Medicines." That was when I realised it, I could have taken one of the pills.

This whole time I could have taken one of the pills. Why haven't I thought of it? At the begining of the exam I was taking them left and right, and now I tried to eat someone and I just let it go. I searched my things for my bottle, but no use. Narrowing my eyes, I pat myself down looking for it. No. . . No. No. No. The pills are gone. How could I have lost them? What could I have possibly done to loose the pills. I didn't take them all. A thought plauged my mind. Killua. He must have taken them.

It made sense. He knew I was taking some kind of pill, but he didn't know what they were for. Killua must have taken them from me after I ate off Johness. Probably a procaution on his part. They probably think that the pills is what is making me kill.

"Kill!" I yelled throwing a book at him. He had closed his eyes to lie back down, but they snapped open before he caught the book in his hands. I stormed over to him. "Where are they!?" I yelled at him. Gon and Kurapika was wide awake now, but Leorio was still half asleep.

"What is going on?" Leorio asked.

"What are you talking about Rilluma?" Kurapika questioned.

"Why are you so upset? Did Killua do something wrong?" Gon fratically called trying to figure out the reason for my outburst.

The questions. Always with the questions. My entire life has been like that. People ask me questions and I can't give them any answers. Not only because Illumi is breathing over my shoulder all the time. Even when I was growing up all there was was questions. There was no answers given to me. No reason to question what we do in our workforce. Well, now I'm done with all of the questions. I want some answers.

"I know you took them Killua!" I screamed at him. He made no attempt to push me off or to fight back. He sat there waiting for some kind of explanation, but I wasn't going to be the one to give that to him. He was going to give them back to me no matter what I needed to do. Even fight him. I sent a punch at his face, only to have him catch it in his hand. I sent another punch but he pulled my wrist down making me fall onto the floor next to Killua. I stood up lunging at him, but he disappeared to the other side of the room.

"Hand to hand has never been your strong suit Rill. Fighting me." he told me. "Your more of a teeth and claw user." I growled at him and charged. I punched him, kicked him, screamed at him, but all was dodged. he grabbed me by the wrist, pulled it behind my back, and kicked the pack of my knees. My legs buckled at he pushed my face into the floor.

"Let go of me!" I yelled at him.

"No. Not until you calm down and tell me why your yelling at me?" he replied. I tried to fight but he pushed my arm up further making me fight harder. He didn't want to break my arm, so instead he sharpened his nails into daggers and held them against my neck. Seeing the position I was in I whined in submission.

"You took my pills. I know you did." I mumbled in defeat. Killua wasn't the understanding brother now. Now he was the overrational brother who finds the flaw in your actions and then reacts with anger. Killua was furious. He grunted and pushed the claws closer to my neck.

"I didn't touch them Rill, and I don't think anyone else did either. Instead of attacking use your head. You could have just smelled them out. Try to find where they went that way." Hearing his advice I sniffed the air not finding any immediate sign of their location. They didn't seem to be anywhere close. I closed my eyes and breathed in. Killua did the same and let me up off the floor.

That was when I saw those faces again. Kurapika and Leorio all watched me with looks of fear, but Gon just looked sad. It pained him to see me like this. It pains me to act like it. I hugged myself and looked down to the floor. I bowed my head and spoke two words that I havn't said in a long time.

"I'm sorry." I told them. In sadness I walked back over to the couch. Taking a seat I looked at the clock. Five hours left. Meaning there is no way I was going to get out of this, but I think it's for the better. My explanation has been to long overdo. For years I have lived just going day by day surviving, trying to stay alive. Never have I had to tell anyone what was on my mind, but that all was about to change. I was going to tell them everything. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. Remember my orders Rilluma. you can't tell them anything about me.

At least as much as I can.

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Word Count: 1045