Saving YOU (Synyster Gates lovestory)

My Life

(The story takes place on the first of May,1999 in Huntington Beach, California.)

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My name is Angie Sanders.I am Matt Sanders' sister and we are a few years appart which doesn't make me happy,being the little brat,of course.I would love it if anyone ever just paid a little attention to the middle children,that statement by the way does not make me spoilt but does make me crave a bit more affection than I get these days.Well,that I get ever,actually.

I live in Huntington Beach,California.The sunny land of opportunities and wealth.Not so sunny when you actually spend some time in it and I'm not talking about the weather.I'm talking about the light that people,places or well the soul of something should have and well this place I'm currently living in does indeed lack some sun.I live with my mother Kim and my father Gary.Two of the busiest people I know of,and trust me,I know a lot of people.Not in a bad way.Let's just say I am a pretty much a teen which likes to have fun and socialise with other people.I go to art school,not because it's something special and I am that weird kid that doesn't socialise with anyone and just doesn't talk at all but because I have the most classes off and because it's freaking amazing to be just painting and drawing things and sitting around all day or like I said,not having classes.I was born on the sixth of  April  1984.I am Aries which is incredibly stubborn and independent in every way possible.I always believed in this astrology crap.What can I say..I'm a sucker for myths.So if astrology signs are a myth,is my happiness and everything else I read about  my sign this morning in the newspaper a myth?Probably.Let's just say,I'm a big pessimist but I'm actually trying not to be one most of the time and people think I'm joking.I think my life includes many things and I think I know how to enjoy myself most of the time but I wouldn't say I'm a happy person.Happiness is kind of overrated.My life includes hanging out with people of course somewhat older than me,except my best friend in the world,Charlotte.She's a great looking redhead with a great sense of humor and some good advice and  I think she's got an eye on my brother.I don't mind.She loves to go out and party,she's a very open person and I have no idea why is she with me because I am the complete opposite.I guess I enjoy some silence a little bit too much but I'm not exactly a loner Punk kid nobody likes.People like me,in other words,people appreciate me.Why?I ask myself that question every morning too my friend.I have good grades at school and I try to study a lot and be better and get better in everything but that's hard when you have a house to keep clean,breakfast,lunch and dinner to make,shop,organise,socialise.I like to keep my time well sceduled..well I am trying to keep my time by the scedule.I love my parents to death but I just don't think that they take enough responsibility about our family.I think my mom is cheating on my dad,and dad is cheating on my mom,they are never home,dad works sometimes and Matt...Matt has this little own world of his that I don't think I belong in as much as he tries to get me in and make me more,the way he likes it or anyone else but I think I am gonna take the responsibility to do that.That's the way it always should be,isn't it?Emotionally,I believe I am kind of unstable and not ready for anything because I am sixteen years old but I think I should enjoy myself and from this day on it's gonna change.This is suppossedly my big movie moment in which I talk about self improvement and betterment of my Life.Well I think I deserve one. I am gonna go out more often,drink,party,laugh,get myself a boyfriend.I look respectable,like any other teenager in the 90's.I love wearing a lot of different styles of clothing,I am a bit of a fashionista.I have long brown reddish hair that comes right down to my elbows,blue eyes to die for and a slim,maybe too skiny body.I am trying to eat more and get as much food as I can in my system but sometimes I just forget,the basic girl statements ignoring anorexia obviously..

I should call Charlotte,and I should go but this sunset is beautiful and I feel like I can't take my eyes off of it.I secretly have a lots of bad habits,and I'm trying to keep the world from finding out about that.I don't know cigarettes are just a way to relieve stress I guess and alcohol is just a way to forget you were stressed at all,I've never tried drugs but people in front of me do it all the time.I guess I owe it to Matt to pay attention to what he says more,about guys,parties,drugs but I know he's just too protective over me,well,when he notices me.I'm kind of messed up in the head,me and him know that and well,I mostly don't feel like talking about it.I should make him happy,mom and dad are not here and I'm gone he's gone all the time,this family is falling apart.He's starting a band and I wish him all the luck in the world with that,I know that it's his dream,and I love his music,he's such a good singer,such a good person,such a good brother.