Oh, Calamity (Alex Gaskarth/ ATL fan-fic)

Too Much

Alex's POV:

I yawned and waltzed to the kitchen to make coffee. I was particularly sad this morning, since I would be leaving on a plane for London in a few hours. Marina would be leaving in a week and a half to Seattle for Warped Tour, but our pets were already at my mom's house, to give us a break while we were packing. Now it was May.

Marina was already in the kitchen watching the television, and handed me a cup of coffee. "Morning, Alley Cat."

"Morning, Big Butt." I draped an arm around her waist and kissed her. I was already dressed, as was she.

"How did you sleep?" I asked.

"Not well. It's not the most settling feeling to know that this is the last morning I have to make you Coffee until late August." She shrugged.

"Neither did I. But hey, we can do this. We could always do this." I explained. "We said it from the beginning."

"I just never thought I would ever be so invested in another human being." She laughed.

"I'll see you in July anyway for a week. It's only two weeks until I see you again. It shouldn't kill you." I rubbed her back. "Anything interesting on the news?"

"No. Just a bunch of dumb stuff." She said, rather bitter.

"Well it's better than nothing bad." I said, taking out my phone and checking twitter. I scrolled pass, then saw a new, and shocking, tweet from Lisa. It read "Announcement: Josh and I having a child!"

"Whoa, babe, Lisa's pregnant." I said.

"Really? Oh, you should congratulate her." She answered.

I found her number (which I had just in case she was out with Marina and I needed to reach her) and sent her a congratulatory text. Moments later, I got one back, saying "Yeah, I've decided to keep it this time". I was very alarmed, and replied with "wait, you've been pregnant before?". She responded with "yeah, Marina didn't tell you?".

I turned to her. "Rina, what the hell is she talking about?"

Rina read, then set the phone facedown on the counter. "Alex, please don't be mad."

I was confused and frustrated. "What happened?"

She took a shaky exhale. "After Emily lost the baby, I ran into Lisa, and she said that she got an abortion once when you two were together."

The words cut deeper than any knife ever could. I could've been a dad. I could've been a father. I could've know Lisa never told me. Things would be so different. And a surge came over my body, a more powerful surge than I had ever before experienced. I wanted my lungs to scream out. Never had I ever been so angry.

"HOW COULD YOU?" I screamed, making her jump back. "WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?"

She yelled back with the same force. "I NEVER WANTED YOU TO KNOW, OKAY?"

"WHY THE FUCK NOT?"

"BECAUSE I KNEW YOU'D JUST RUN BACK TO HER! YOU'D DO SOMETHING TO MAKE IT UP TO HER! YOU'D SHUT ME OUT!" She screamed. What a vile bitch.

"DON'T YOU EVEN DARE! I'D NEVER LEAVE YOU FOR ANYONE! I WAS ALWAYS FAITHFUL! YOU CUNT!" I yelled, grabbing my bag, walking out the door.

"Where do you think you're going?" She asked.

"I'm leaving!" I stormed away. I started walking down the street to the bus stop.

"You prick! You don't get that I didn't want to be a part of this!" She screamed at me.

"Well that's too fucking bad, because she MADE you a part of it!" I stomped trying to express my anger. I couldn't believe she was following me out here.

"HOW DARE YOU? I'M LOOKING OUT FOR YOU!" She stopped, standing in front of the bus stop sign.

The anger bursted out even more. My rage surpassed where I ever thought it would be. "YOU SELFISH TWAT! HOW DOES ANY OF THIS BENEFIT ME?"

She stood with a glare on her face, fists clenched. She didn't even have anything to be angry about. How dare she stand in front of me like this? "You dense prick." She said through gritted teeth.

Prick. That small utter from her daring lips set me over the edge. I took off her class ring and whipped it at her, hitting her in the cheek. She winced in what must have been a lot of pain, but didn't show it. She kept her stance, letting the ring fall to the ground. It enraged me even more. 

"TAKE YOUR FUCKING RING! GOD, I CAN'T EVEN STAND TOO LOOK AT YOUR LYING FACE ANYMORE!" I screeched.

"I NEVER LIED ABOUT ANYTHING!" She defensively shouted. "I ONLY KEPT IT FROM YOU!"

"KEPT POSSIBLY THE MOST IMPORTANT SECRET OF MY LIFE! FUCK YOU!" I let out, then brought my tone down to tears. I hated that they were making me look like the weaker one. But I kept a stiff upper lip. "I can't believe you."

"Then don't." She hissed like the decietful snake she was.

I gritted my teeth. "You know what? I can't believe i ever loved you. You're some kind of monster. Everything that you ever said was complete bullshit, and I can't believe I've wasted a year on someone as worthless as you. Your legs aren't beautiful, they're disgusting. Why don't you just go home, scratch your arms, and call it another suicide attempt? Oh, and then when you're finished, actually kill yourself. You've caused the bands and I more pain than you'll ever be able to inflict on yourself."

Whatever just uttered from my mouth, whether I meant it or not, felt like a release. I let out more tears, then wiped them away. I never wanted to see her again.

"Is that really how you want to end this?" She asked.

I nodded, nothing more.

The bus rolled up. She turned away as I boarded, handing the driver cash and wiping my tears. I hated how this felt with every part of my being. So much wasted time on just another heartless girl. 

I rested my head on the window, peering out at her, tears dripping down my face like a waterfall. She stood still, the small bow and arrow tattoo on her back shining bright. She stayed emotionless, like a steadfast soldier. I hated that more than anything else about this entire event. How emotionless she was, but how broken I felt. And that, she'd never understand. 

Rain dripped.

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Sooooo didn't see that coming, did you? Umm, yeah. Question: how do you feel about this fight? Who's side are you on? New chapter up soon. -LoryXD