Not So Picture Perfect

Chapter 11

It takes a while for my mind to register what Camilla has just offered me. My own record deal, making my own music for people to hear and buy. It doesn't seem real. It is though, this once in a lifetime offer is actually real, and for once in my life I'm a little skeptical about whether I should take it or not.

Finally out of all the things swirling around in my mind I manage to let out a small, "I-I don't know".

Chase looks at me in shock, as does everyone else around me. All of them probably stunned by the fact that I didn't immediately jump at the chance to have a record deal. Especially after my performance not even an hour ago.

"What do you mean you don't know?!" Chase yelps.

I look back at him and shrug. I'm scared right now. What if saying yes isn't the right decision, what if something goes horribly wrong. Maybe I should just stick to being the photographer, quiet and hidden behind the camera. That's how people know me best, so why change everything now?

"I just don't know, what if this isn't the right path for me. What if I'm not good enough to keep the deal?"

Camilla thinks for a moment about what I just said. I can practically see the gears in her mind turning, trying to come up with a way to make me say yes.

It's funny, I almost immediately think of Sophie when I see how hard she's thinking. She had the same look as Camilla on her face when Hunter asked her out. Thinking, of a reason to say no because she was so nervous. She couldn't come up with one though, and I'm glad she didn't.

Speaking of Sophie, maybe I should call her to see what her opinion would be.

Before I can pull out my phone though Camillas eyebrows shoot up and she smiles widely.

"How about this. You go home write two songs, then in a month we'll meet up again in California, to record them. If you like doing that, and if the producers like your music then you say yes to the deal. If you can't write the songs, or the producers don't like them then you say no to the deal?"

"But what if I just fake not being able to do them, or write shitty songs on purpose?"

My mother glares at me for my language and I roll my eyes. Camilla rolls her eyes too, but for a different reason.

" I know for a fact, that Shawn, and your boyfriend here would not let that happen." She says, her hands on her hips.

I smirk knowing she's right. My boys would never let me fail at something on purpose. Especially Chase. So I sigh, and give in.

"Okay, one month, two songs. Then I'll meet you in the studio. We record, then get feedback. That's it, nothing else." I say.

Everyone cheers, Camilla is grinning and nodding her head in approval. Chase wraps his arms around me in a bear hug and kisses me all over, until I'm laughing and writhing away from his touch.

I look up, and see my family talking excitedly, Camilla is making a call, and Shawn, he's walking away with his head down. I know I'm the reason why, and it should be killing me inside, but it's not.
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Shawn's POV:

I was right about what I said earlier. Having Chase come to see Hayden, is exactly what I needed to realize I can't have her.

It's stupid, I know. I'm Shawn Mendes, I can have any girl I want. There are thousands of cute girls screaming my name everywhere I go, but as much as I love them, and as cute as they are I don't want them. I don't see them like I see Hayden.

I need to forget about it though. She's leaving tomorrow morning, I won't see her for a month. She'll be with Chase, writing music, something that I hoped to be able to do with her. She's got a gift. I know she'll get that deal, and I know Chase is going to work her hard so she doesn't bail.