best friends || s.h.s

ten

two weeks had passed since that day at hoseok's and he still hadn't talked to me once. he doesn't sit with our friends in our classes or at lunch. and i'm nearly positive our friends blame me, though sooyoung and hyungwon continuously tell me that no one is blaming me. but if it's not my fault, then who's to blame?

"hey, sweetheart, how was school?" my mom asked me when i walked through the front door.

i shrugged as i walked to the couch and sat down next to her. "same as it has been; whatever."

she wrapped an arm around my shoulders and gave me a light squeeze. "honey, you're really letting this whole thing with hoseok take a toll on your life."

i scoffed. "is that surprising? he's been my best friend for like my whole life and suddenly it's like he's not in my life anymore. he can't even look at me when he passes me in the hallways."

i was of course ready to cry as i have been the past two weeks but i didn't have the energy to do so.

"hyunmi, i think you should try to talk to him."

"mom, i have tried. he ignores my texts. he's really done with me."

"i don't think so. you should try harder. why don't you try going to his house?" she offered with a smile.

i tried to tell her no but before i knew it, she had driven me to his house and driven away, leaving me at his doorstep. 

i took a long, deep breath before knocking on his door. as i waited, i felt my anxiety levels rising. i had no idea what to even think about saying to him when he opened the door, if he were to even let me say anything.

right when i was about to knock again, someone opened the door.

but instead of seeing hoseok, i was greeted by somi. 

"what are you doing here?" she asked me, disgust very present in her voice.

"i-i came to talk t-to hoseok." i cleared my throat.

she rolled her eyes. "are you dumb? he obviously wants nothing to do with you. why do you think he's been ignoring you?"

after hearing her, i was no longer nervous or anxious. i was just pissed off. 

"listen, somi," i scoffed a little bit. "i didn't come here to talk to you, or to talk to hoseok through you. i came to have a talk with him, so either go tell him i'm here, or let me in." 

"hyunmi, i don't-"

"hey, somi, who's at-" hoseok came up behind somi, falling silent when our eyes met. he stared at me for a few seconds before stepping outside, telling somi to go back in and wait for him.

the two of us just stared at each other, i'm assuming we both felt a bit flustered.everything i had been wanting to tell him for the past two weeks had suddenly left my mind completely now that he was actually in front of me.

"so, hyunmi," he cleared his throat after being the one to break the silence. "uh, how have you been doing?"

"oh, not too bad, i guess. you?" 

he nodded, mumbling a quiet "same". then there was silence yet again. 

"if you don't mind me asking, what are you doing here?" he asked me after what felt like hours.

a simple question, yet i didn't even really know what the answer was. "i- we haven't been talking. i've wanted to talk about... what happened, and you've been ignoring me. i'm sorry for just showing up here."

"don't be sorry, hyunmi, you're always welcome here, no matter what. but what do you mean i've been ignoring you? you haven't tried contacting me." 

i raised an eyebrow at him. "i have..." i started pulling my phone out of my pocket. "see?" i unlocked my phone, going into my messages with hoseok, showing him all the texts he never responded to.

he then pulled out his phone to show me that he indeed received zero of the texts i sent him. 

i felt a pit of confusion and sadness in my stomach. "how did this happen?"

he shrugged. "we'll figure it out, it's okay. but, hey," he then placed a hand on my shoulder. "i would never ignore you. not talking to you these past weeks has been so awful for me, and i'm so sorry for not reaching out to you."

before i could respond, he pulled me into a tight hug. "we both said regretful things, and we can move past them. you're my best friend and losing you is the worst thing imaginable. i love you, hyunmi."

i felt warmth spread throughout my body as i wrapped my arms around him and nuzzled my face into his neck, breathing in the familiar and comforting scent of my best friend. "i'm sorry, hoseok. i missed you."

"i missed you more. let's not get into any more fights."

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