best friends || s.h.s

twelve

a/n: as always, i didn't proofread this and again i took 32872 years to get this out. i experienced some writer's block and i wanted it to be really good. but this time when i say the next chap will be out soon i really mean it so pls don't hate me, thank you for reading, ily all!!

i avoided hyungwon for a week. seeing him in school physically hurt me so i begged my mom to let me skip school for the last three days of the week after i came home crying on the second day.

he had came to my house each of the days, but my mom didn't let him in (obviously, and thankfully). but unfortunately, now it was saturday, and my mom had a business trip and wouldn't be able to make him go away.

i had been feeling anxiety since last night when my mom told me she would be leaving in the morning. she told me to try to stay with hoseok for the duration of her trip, but hyungwon would be smart enough to go to his house to look for me.

so instead i decided to ask juhyun if i could stay with her until my mom gets back. out of my group of friends, i'm probably the least close with her, so i was hoping she'd be the last person's house he'd look for me.

lucky for me, juhyun agreed to let me stay with her, although i don't think she was that happy to.

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"hyunmi, yerim and seungwan are gonna come over later. we had made the plans before... it wouldn't be right for me to cancel."

i offered juhyun a small smile. "yeah, it's fine. as long as he won't be here."

she smiled back at me before exiting the spare bedroom she was letting me use, leaving me all alone to think about the boy who had hurt me.

at first i wanted to place all of the blame on him. but then when i really started to consider everything, i started to think that maybe most of the blame belonged on somi. it was clear she didn't like me for whatever reason, so it made complete sense that she'd try to hurt me. 

but no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't seem to completely convince myself that hyungwon was not at all to blame.  

maybe part of the reason for that was because i didn't want hoseok to get hurt. 

hoseok had no clue that the girl he was head over heels for was the girl that made hyungwon hurt me. if he found out, it would absolutely crush him, and what kind of best friend would i be if i let that happen?

the only way to make this problem at least start to go away would be to talk to hyungwon, but i didn't know if i was ready for that. 

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"hey, someone is here to see you." juhyun poked her head in the doorway. i tensed up, assuming i knew who the someone was. "chill, it's just changkyun."

i let out the breath i was holding in as i stood up from my bed and followed juhyun out to her living room where the boy with light brown hair was waiting for me.

his eyes lit up as he smiled when he saw me. "hyunmi!" he called out, dragging out the ee sound. he pulled me into a hug, causing me to smile. "i've missed you so much! do you know the troubles i had to go through to find you? i thought you'd left the country!"

i pulled away from the hug with an eyebrow raised. "changkyun, why would i flee the country because of a bump in a relationship?"

"if kihyun ever hurts me, i'd flee the-"

"WHAT?!" i slapped his shoulder. "you and kihyun got together? what the fuck, when?"

changkyun smiled shyly. "on wednesday. he asked me out after lunch." 

"aw! that's so cute, congrats! you two are a beautiful couple, and if he ever hurts you, i'll hurt him."

we both laughed at the statement, knowing that i couldn't hurt a fly. 

changkyun and i talked for a while, him catching me up on what i had missed the past few days at school, avoiding bringing up a certain person. but when we ran out of things to talk about, i couldn't help but ask how hyungwon had been.

"not great. he... he misses you a lot, and he feels dumb for trying to bug you at your house. i told him that when stuff like this happens, anyone normal would need space. he does want a chance to talk to you though, to explain things."

i sighed, saddened thinking about how he must be struggling as much as me. "i just don't know if i'm ready to talk to him, ya know?"

"of course! please, take you time." he paused, thinking of how to say whatever was about to come out of his mouth. "just... know that we're all a bit... worried about him."

i tilted my head to the side a little. "why?"

"he's been acting really weird."

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