best friends || s.h.s

seventeen

a/n: yes hi this is unedited i hope you enjoy<3

"you."

it felt like hoseok and i were in the middle of a staring contest when he said that one word. it was as if we were completely frozen.

i almost wanted to convince myself that i misheard him, but i couldn't come up with anything else he would've said that made sense.

"h-hoseok-"

"you probably think i'm crazy, i get that. i thought somi was crazy. but think about it," he switched our hands so that he was now holding mine. "you can't tell me that you've never felt like we'd be kinda perfect for each other. you can't tell me that whenever someone said we'd be a cute couple, you didn't consider it a little. you can't tell me-"

"hoseok stop!"

i stood up hastily, pulling my hand away from his. my fingers were running through my hair as i stared down at the floor. the words he was saying weren't making sense in my head. he was talking like a crazy person.

i took a long, deep breath before looking back up at the boy sitting on my bed, staring at me with clear confusion in his eyes. "you should leave."

"what?"

"you're not making any sense right now. you literally just went through a breakup so you're obviously not thinking straight and you're spewing nonsense. you should go, clear your head, and then you can come back later and we can talk." i took a step closer to him, grabbing hold of his arm and pulling him off of my bed.

right before i could open my door, i was pushed against the wall, hoseok was now just a few inches away from me.

i opened my mouth to question him, but was quickly cut off by his lips on mine. my previously tense body relaxed as i leaned into the kiss, closing my eyes.

hoseok's lips were soft and smooth, and connected perfectly with mine.

it felt like we could be in that position forever and i would be happy.

but as we continued to kiss, i began to realize what i was doing and how wrong it was, causing me to open my eyes and push hoseok away from me.

"what the fuck, hoseok?"

he smiled at me. "don't tell me that felt like nothing to you. i know you felt something."

"hoseok, i have a boyfriend! one that i am happy with! you really need to go. now."

his smile faded away once he realized how mad i actually was. he mumbled a quiet sorry before finally leaving my room. i waited until i heard him exit my house before making my way back to sooyoung and changkyun.

i sat back down in front of the piece of pizza i had abandoned, letting out a loud sigh.

all of my emotions were jumbled up.

while i knew i was feeling incredibly angry at hoseok, i was also still happy he had broken up with somi. but there was another feeling i just couldn't put a name to, yet it was completely overwhelming and made me feel like jumping up and down or singing my favorite song.

"hey, what was that about?" changkyun asked me after about a minute of silence.

the question made me feel a bit flustered for some reason. "oh, nothing. let's just not talk about boys." i smiled at the boy before turning my head to sooyoung. "hey, how are your acting classes going?"

the suddenly joyful girl started telling changkyun and i about all the things she's been doing and learning in her acting classes while my mind started to travel back to hoseok.

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after watching two movies with my friends, the two finally left at around ten, leaving me alone with my thoughts.

it was darker than usual in my room, but i was too lazy to turn on a lamp. and since i wasn't tired, i was laying in my bed, staring up at my pale blue ceiling.

i couldn't stop thinking about the way hoseok's lips on mine made me feel. his lips were softer than feathers, and honestly felt like they were made for mine.

everything about the kiss was absolutely perfect. thinking about it made my cheeks heat up.

what are you doing, hyunmi? you have a boyfriend, why are you thinking about a kiss with someone else?

i then felt an overwhelming amount of guilt. why was i thinking about a kiss i shared with someone other than hyungwon3

"fuck, i'm the worst girlfriend ever." i whispered to myself.

fed up with myself and my thoughts, i decided it was time to sleep.

as soon as i rolled over and closed my eyes, i heard a knock on the front door.

who's here at this hour?

just a few seconds later, i could hear my mother open the door.

"hyunmi!" she called. "hoseok's here to see you!"

what is he doing here at this hour?