Just My P.A.

30~ Little Secrets

"Now is not the time" she said looking into my eyes. What more could I have done?! My hope of knowledge died and I stepped back.

"I meant no invasion of your privacy" I justified my action.

"You came up to my house!" She snapped with a little frown spread over her face. Her tears had dried and I knew she was getting back to her senses now.

"That isn't where you live! ...also , cause you were being over protective...and I didn't want anyone else to mess with my company whatsoever!!" I claimed.

Her face was calm again.

"You know what...just keep it to yourself..." I said.I had had enough of her. All I wanted was to help and there she was charging back at me. I moved towards the door and my hand reached the handle to open former.

"I will one day...Manik" she said almost in a whisper. I looked at her.
She had stars behind each eyelid. And a galaxy in her soul, that drew people to her endless heart. She was made of earth and fire, of wishes cast on shooting stars. And yet she kept her emotions on fire, and only ashes remained of what she felt. I didn't know how she felt to be honest. But I promised to know soon and I knew I would by the time she thought she was ready to let it out - to me.

"And I will wait for it..." I replied breaking my trance and my hand pushed down the handle of the door and thus I walked out.

There was this thing about her. I knew it no matter how much I denied. I knew there was something going on and I believed I'd find it out soon, there was nothing I could do till then. Or maybe I could?! I started feeling differently around her. There was this sudden protectiveness growing inside me for her and I kind of didn't want to "ungrow" it!!

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I lay down on the bed and looked blankly at the white ceiling watching the fan go round about again and again. It wasn't as fascinating as it sounds but  indeed I had to do something. I had changed my clothes upon Manik's leave and failed at drying my hair because of the weather.

Maybe it's okay that we don't know what is going to happen. Maybe it's that time we stopped predicting and controlling. There's this truth people seem to realise late these days- happiness doesn't start with a relationship or love. It starts with our thoughts as what we tell ourselves everyday. And also that, people are not swings! You can't keep pushing them away and expect them to return back.

I shut my eyes.
The vision started with blackness at first followed by things I wished to see and live for but today, there he was with his sly grin spread over that well sculpted face he owned! Manik. I knew the feeling bubbling up inside me and for a change I tried wondering what better could happen if I'd let it through!

I was long lost in my own thoughts and area of admiration and anticipation when my phone came to life.

I sat up on the bed and glanced to find Harshad calling me.

"Hello" I picked up the call.

"Progress?" He came down straight to business.

"They are almost done...." I said trying to hide as much as I could. I had chosen my side finally. I was going to ruin him. Harshad. It was time he paid back.

"Glad!" He whispered.

"Your days are ending Nandini...it's time you did it! Unless " his voice changed from tensed to threatening by the end.

"I will" I said and he cut the call next.

I sighed in relief. This is it! I'm glad I knew what was to be done before it was too late.