Just My P.A.

34~The final chapter (B)

Some days I blame her. Other days I blame myself. Some days I chalk it upto us being two people who simply didn't work out. Some days I can't stand the thought of her ,other days she's all I want to think of . It's been three days since the incident.I don't know what's happening outside , I don't know where everyone is. I have locked myself up. I tried killing every inch of feeling bubbling inside me but here I am.
Here I am driving my car as fast as I can. Here I am getting angry at everyone and specially me. Here I am beating myself up for doing this.

Did I hate Nandini? Yes I did.
Did I never want to see her again? Yes I never wanted to see her again.

But today was about making everything right.
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Q label office

I was MIA for three days and just like I'd thought it would be, all eyes were on me as I walked inside the office.

God. What is wrong with everybody?

I pushed away all my thoughts and went for the lift. I didn't know if I'd find her. I didn't know if I wanted to find her. But I made my way to my office anyway.

I walked down the corridor to find a empty desk and the door to my cabin shut. I felt suffocated and hopeless at the same time. She's gone?! Obviously she's gone. I didn't even know where she lived.

I pulled out my cellphone from my pocket and found Nandini's contact. I second guessed what I was about to do when I heard my name being called out.

"Manik" Alya called out walking in my direction. Her face was pale but she smiled at me anyway.

I put my phone back inside the pocket and gave all my attention to her,

"Hey..." I replied , guilt clearly visible in my tone.

"Well my intern said you were here..." she shrugged her shoulders.

"Ya...I needed some time to..." but I didn't have anything more to say.

"I understand..." she almost said in a whisper.

"Cabir tried calling you...." she continued.

"Ya I Woh...." but she cut me off,

"Ya so, we have to go to the studio...And you know...stuff...anyway....I guess you are not up for it today....so whenever!" She said and readied herself to leave my presence.

I nodded and she took a step back in dismay.

"Alya...." the words just left my mouth on their own. I didn't know what to say next.

She looked at me and then down and I found myself walking closer to where she stood.

"Hey....ummm...." I held her hand and she looked at me again.

"I'm sorry..." I said only to find her look away. She was clearly bad at hiding her tears and soon they flooded her face.

"It's okay..." she somehow managed to say.

"No it's not....I'm sorry....I should have known...."

"I....I....Manik....please don't do this..." she said wiping her tears and freeing herself from my grip.

"What?..." I asked.

"Manik....I still...I still have...Ummn..."

"I know..." I said realising what she was about to say.

"And I know...you have feelings for Nandini...so please don't make this anymore difficult by trying to make things right between us..." she said looking in every direction but mine.