Just My P.A.

31~ About Denouement

Your smile is a sunlight, bright and shameless. I imagine your clever fingers , tangled in my hair, whispering against my hips. I imagine us whole again, no blood , no break. Only, the two of us, quiet in a field somewhere, golden light and spring grass as our hands clasped , safety found between our lips.

There are words on my tongue, too clumsy to spill out,but I don't want to wait until you are gone to tell you everything- how you make every colour more vibrant, how a world without you would be a shattered, useless little thing. And I'd never want it like that.

So stay with me here. There will be you and me and all the light in the world.
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"Damn it" I cursed striking my fingers over the snooze button of my phone. I picked up my phone soon after and checked the time immediately realising the date for today.

"Big day today Nandini." I assured myself.

It was 8 in the morning and my ears caught the beating of drums and I soon realised the fab five were busy practising. I sat up and stretched my arms, Alya wasn't in the room as I expected.

"Aiye appa, let this day go without hurdles..." I wished, putting my legs on the floor. I walked to the washroom and undressed before I stood under the shower. I washed my skin from head to toe, putting the lotion and cosmetics as an ointment over my scars. I winced in pain like each morning and hence having cleaned up I stepped out from under the running cold water, switching the tap off. I dried myself up and took in a deep breath as I wore my clothes- the same I wore on the first to his office; Manik's. I adjusted my kurti and combed my hair before I finally stepped outside the washroom.

I peeked from the window in my room to find the five of them practising and my eyes fell on him. My lips curved in a smile and I wished for his happiness. There was something with us, I wasn't yet sure of what it was- it felt nice though. Ah this feeling!

I pulled the curtains, making the room darker than before. There was something I needed to do before we went behind Harshad. I knew nothing would be the same after today, maybe I wouldn't even see him, maybe he'd prefer not seeing me anymore. I didn't know what was going to happen other the fact that this would reach him, sooner or later!
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And all left as quick as it came. We melted and broke, the life left behind in ashes and smoke , sins and memories remain but nothing left need be spoke. In the end the road will twist, and bend. Fate will take for a ride and take you out there for the mend.
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My mind wouldn't rest for a while. I tried practising whole heartedly , trying to keep it to myself but time and again my eyes fell Dhruv and I had a strong gush on emotions rise straight through me- from head to toe.

Memories we had would spill across my eyes. I didn't know what had gotten into him. I didn't know why he suddenly had such hateful attitude against me. I hadn't had a clue to figure it out.

I knew today was the day when I would get all my answers. Answers I have been waiting for quiet a long now. For why I was treated like this? For what I felt for Alya? For why Dhruv wouldn't want to hold onto this friendship? For...for what she meant to me , Nandini!

"Chal Manik abb rest karte hai!" Said Mukti pulling out her phone from her pocket. I nodded without listening. I kept my guitar aside and glanced at the time. It was 12 pm.

It was time.

"Dhruv!" I called out.

"Haan buddy?!" He said walking in my direction with my guitar. I rolled my eyes upon the title he suggested.