feelings

Empty

You do, on the inside you dont know how to explain. It is a black hole your stuck in going in circles while it gets deeper and deeper. You try to get to the top to reach the light, but you never find it, and you never reach it. You are drowning inside but you cant get to the top for air, you try everything to get the waits off of you that are dragging you under deeper and deeper till you feel nothing ,and till your dead inside. You are screaming inside every day for help for someone to realize that you need help, for someone to help you out of the pain. You cry inside everyday for help, for someone to save you before its to late. You try to drown the mosters that live inside you, but you can't because they know how to swim. You feel alone when your around people and even more alone when you arent around people, you try to surround yourself with people so you dont feel like that but in the end you do. You eventually talk to someone about what is wrong, but they say "yeah sure, your fine kid go do what you usually do," or you'll be okay.  But you want people to stop telling you that because your not amd you won't ever be okay or fine or even happy. You only hide the pain you feel behind a smile that isnt even real, you want people to look into your eyes amd be able to see the pain that you are hiding. But no one sees it.