feelings

Stress

She is stressed out crying wanting you here with her. She wants you by her side while she cry's. She wants the one she loves next to her. But he won't be their. He told her to leave him alone. So she messaged him on email hoping he wouldn't answer. Hoping he would just leave her on read without her knowing. Letting her fall into her own darkness. But he answered. He told her to move on. He told her she is just hurting herself. She knew she already was, but she couldn't just let go. She had no reason to hate him. She wanted him with her. She wants him to know her feelings. She wants him happy even if it means the pain of hers. She wants him to find someone else. But she won't let go and find someone else. She wishes she could let go as easily as he did. But she wonders how he let go so easily. How he moved on so fast, and how he just managed to push her away from him without seeing her pain.