feelings

Fuck Me

Call me what you want and tell me the whole damn truth. I hate being out and actually socializing with people. But no one notices that I am crying or upset. No one cares to ask what is wrong. I hide my feelings because I am sick of them being ripped apart. I am sick of being taken for weak. I am tiered of being slammed into the same non existing door and wall. I am tiered of being locked inside a place where I am drowning. I am tiered of crying every night because I don't think I am worth your time. I don't think I am good enough. I am sick of being pushed around. I am sick of trying to talk and you walk off and ignore me. I am sick of everything and everyone. I hate how I try to help everyone but yet they walk off and ignore me. I hate how they don't just accept the fact that I act like I am strong outside when I'm not , and I know I'm not. I know I'm stupid and worthless to you, or if not you someone else. I'm sick of just acting like I'm okay. I'm sick of trying to talk about whats wrong because no one cares to really know whats wrong. The don't even care to try to help. I'm sick of all of this. I'm sick of everyone that pushes me around. I'm just sick of all of this. I just want to leave, and I can't even fake being happy anymore. I can't cry in front of people. I just cry when I'm alone because no one ca take advantage and use anything against me.