feelings

Heart Broken

Your Broken, but don't show it. She is, and does show it. Your tiered, but so is she. You don't want to keep dating her. But she doesn't want to lose you. You thought she didn't care. But she cries thinking she wasn't ever good enough. You thought she cheated on you, so you told everyone else that. But she cried trying to tell you she didn't. You didn't want to listen. She just wanted to talk to you alone. You wanted to ignore her. She tried to talk to you. You called that night. She gave up and wouldn't listen, so she hung up on you. You called again. But all she did was cry and beg, because she knows no one else can replace you. You showed her that she was right when you two first started to date. She knew you where to good for her, she knew she would lose you. You didn't realize the hits she would give you when something was wrong. She cried to you that night for a hour telling you everything. She thought back to when you two first started dating. She cried even more. She thought of that night before you two started dating. How you both stayed up all night. But she had the feeling you didn't think back. She wants to stay with you. But you pushed her away. You saw the messages. She told you to read all of them. You didn't, instead you wanted to throw her phone. You wanted nothing to do with her. You where the one that ignored that night and the past. You where the one that got over it faster then her. You where the one that let her break and let her know why she was wrong. You let her know that you where better when you two where dating, but you weren't different from the guys that broke up with her before you. You let her see the pain she forgot about. You let her get scared of another relationship. You let her cry after you two hung up that night. You stopped caring. You just wanted her to leave you alone after that night. You showed her that after your actions. You didn't even try to talk to her after you read the messages. You show that you can stay pissed at her forever, but she can't be pissed at you. She will forgive you no matter how many times you screw her over but she never did hurt you. she knows you won't see anything that she sends. She knows you will only talk to her that one day she asked if you two could alone. But you don't know what she is doing at home. You don't know what she is thinking. Because you where the one that tore her heart apart into a million pieces and threw it down and stomped on it. She gave you her heart. She never wanted you to leave. But you did, and you ignored the fact that she wouldn't even go and try to talk to you. You where happy she left you alone. You where happy that she wasn't annoying you. You where happy you didn't have to deal with her that day. You where happy that you didn't even have to look or hear her. You never knew that when she annoyed you she was crying inside. She gave you small hints, you just never cared to ask her. She needed your help, but you walked off.