All I Ever Wanted..

I Need Him Back.

I slept at Roxy's that night, I couldn't go back to Blake's. I promised myself I would call Louise tomorrow.

*the next day*

When I woke up, my body hurt. Maybe from stress, I don't know. I grabbed my phone to see the time, it was 7:30. To damn early, so I went back to sleep. I woke up an hour later. It was now 8:30. I text Louise, hoping he would reply.

Me: hey, can we talk? I'm ready to figure things out.

Wow, he text back. Quick.

Louise: yeah of course, I am too. Where?

Me: at Panda Express.

Louise: oh yeah, your favorite. I'll see you in an hour love.

He called me love, that made me smile. I need to look good today I thought to myself. I hopped in the shower and did my business, when I got out I had a bunch of texts from Blake.

Blake: hey can we talk

Blake: please reply

Blake: damn it Jessica reply

Blake: we really need to talk.

Blake: I'm sorry if I'm bugging, just reply and I'll leave you alone.

I decided to text him.

Me: what?

Blake: we need to talk.

Me: about? We already talked.

Blake: I just want to talk, not about what happened. Just about us, our life. I wanna know you more.

Me: well, I'll meet you somewhere later, right now I'm going to see Louise.

Blake: of course, are you at the J. R marriott hotel?

Me: yeah why

Blake: be ready by 7, wear something nice.

Okay, I guess. I finally finished getting ready. My hair was straight and I had on white shorts with a floral top and white converse. My makeup was cute, but simple. I headed over to Panda Express.

When I got there I immediately ordered. I wasn't waiting for nobody. Finally Louise got there, and for once he wasn't late.

Louise: wow, you look amazing. Even when you scarf food down your mouth.

We both laughed.

Me: you do too.

I smiled.

Louise: so, how are you?

Me: Louise, look I miss you. I want you.

Louise: Jess, I miss you too. But we both know things won't ever be the same.

Me: and?

Louise: we can't be together.

Me: why? We both love each other and isn't that all that matters!

Louise: Jessica! I found someone else.

Tears formed in my eyes.

Me: who? The girl you kissed at the game?

Louise: no, someone else.

Me: damn, how many bitches do you have?

Louise: look that doesn't matter, I found someone, her names Anna. I really like here. Don't screw this up for me.

Me: you're an asshole.

I got up and began to walk out.

Louise: so how was kissing blake huh? You whore. He can have you now, I don't want your ass. Lose my number.

I ran outside, I've never felt this way. I've never felt this much pain for someone. He broke me. Officially.

I drove to Blake's house crying, hoping he would be home. I knocked on the door, no answer. I forgot I had a key, so I opened the door. No one was home. I decided to stay there until he got home, I hope he doesn't get creeped out.

When Blake got home, he saw me scarfing down ice cream watching the notebook.

"If you're a bird, im a bird.."

Me: THATS A FUCKING LIE ALL MEN DO IS LIE

I was crying when I said this. Blake ran over to me not knowing what to do, should he feel bad for me, or laugh at how pathetic I look? He basically he did both.

Blake: what did he do to you now?

Me: what didn't he do? It's officially over.

Blake: gosh, I'm sorry Jess.

Me: did you call me Jess?

Blake: yeah? Is there a problem?

Me: it's just only Louise called me that, but I like it better when you call me it.

I smiled, I'm so bipolar.

Blake: you better get ready!

Me: for what?

Blake: I'm taking you out tonight remember!

Me: oh yeah, what do I wear?

Blake: wait don't wear anything fancy, dress casual, I have different plans.

We both began to get ready. I wore a navy sweatshirt with my white shorts and black sandals. Blake was wearing a black Jordan shirt with beige shorts.

He looked simple but cute.

Blake: let's go.

He smiled.

Me: where to?

Blake: you'll see, it's a surprise.