All I Ever Wanted..

Drama drama

*the next day*

It was 9:00, and Blake was no where to be found. I wasn't worried because I know he has practice. I picked up my phone and saw a text from Blake.

Blake: Good morning sunshine! I had practice this morning, I'll be back at around 11. I hope you slept good!

Me: good morning :) okay, that's fine.

Blake: lets do something tonight? DJ'S having a party at club Zion. I would love it if you would come.

Me: yeah that sounds great!

The party sounds like fun, but I honestly don't want to go, and It was at club Zion. Ugh oh god. I just need some time to think about things. I decided to text Roxy to see if she wanted to go grab lunch.

Me: let's go grab a bite at Penny's Cafe.

Roxy: sure, everything okay? I'll be there in an hour.

Me: yeah, I just need someone to talk to.

I decided to hop in the shower and throw on a hoodie, and a pair of jeans.

I really wasn't in the mood to get ready.

*an hour later*

When I arrived at Penny's I decided to go grab a seat. Roxy finally got there.

Roxy: hey, what's wrong baby girl?

Me: I'm just confused. I slept with Blake last-

Roxy: OH MY GOD WHAT HOW IS HE

Me: Roxy, please. I feel like a whore.

Roxy: well why?

Me: because, I just broke up with Louise & then I went and slept with Blake. And ugh.

Roxy: who cares, Louise did the same thing right? AND BEHIND YOUR BACK. Do you have feelings for Blake?

Me: see that's the thing, I obviously still love Louise...

Roxy: you have to forget about him. I'm not gunna sugar coat things, but he's over you.

Well that kind of hurt.

Me: oh. Well yeah. I knew that.

I tried to play it off.

Roxy: and what about Blake?

Me: I don't wanna be one of his "girls" .. he sleeps around a lot. And I most definitely don't want to get hurt. AGAIN.

Roxy: why would he hurt you?

Me: you see all the girls he has, why would he be loyal to me, when he can have almost any girl?

Roxy: you're being difficult. I'm pretty sure he likes you. You just won't admit to liking him.

Me: BECAUSE I DONT.

Roxy: you slept with him, what the fuck do you mean?

Me: I wasn't thinking. I just got stuck in the moment. And he invited me to go to DJ'S party with him, at club... Zion.

Roxy: isn't that where Louis' girl works? Uh oh.

Me: yeah, I might not go.

Roxy: you better.

Our food then arrived and we began to eat.

*later on*

I was on my way back to Blake's house, he should be home. I couldn't stop thinking about the party tonight. You know what, I'm going. I'm gunna have a pleasant ass time, and I'm not gunna let any of this crap get to me. Tonight will be fun.

I finally got to Blake's house, I walked in & he was watching tv.

Me: hey Blake.

I smiled.

Blake: hey beautiful, what did you do today?

Me: I went to lunch with Roxy.

Blake: looking like that? Wow.

He said sarcastically.

Me: shut up you ass.

We both laughed.

Blake: so hey, about tonight. If you don't want to go, you don't have too.

Me: but I want too.

Blake: good because I really want you to go, it should be fun.

We kept looking at each other. And eventually we kissed. It started to go somewhere, but I promised myself I wouldn't sleep with Blake anymore. It was a mistake.

Me: Blake, stop.

Blake: why what's wrong?

Me: I can't do this.

Blake: you did it last night?

Me: but it was a mistake.

Blake got off of me, he looked pretty heated.

Blake: a mistake? Haven't you made enough "mistakes" ?

Me: I'm sorry Blake, I have so much on my plate right now! I'm confused.

Blake: JESSICA DO YOU NOT THINK BEFORE YOU DO?

Me: I do, it's just-

Blake: no! Why would you do that? Even after I told you I felt a spark. You can't mess with people's feelings like that Jessica.

Me: BLAKE IM SORRY

Blake: saying sorry doesn't make this problem disappear! Just leave! You've caused enough problems.

I grabbed my stuff and walked out crying. Before I could walk out the door Blake grabbed my arm. He pulled me inside.

Blake: Jessica.

Me: what the fuck do you want!

Blake: I didn't mean to blow up on you, I'm just having a rough time.

Me: with what?

The tone in my voice lightened.

Blake: it's my dad...

Tears formed in his eyes. I've never seen Blake cry. I rubbed his back.

Blake: he... He.. Has cancer.

Tears then formed in my eyes.

Me: blake, I'm so sorry. I feel like a complete bitch. I didn't mean to put you through this.

Blake: Jessica? Just give me a chance. I won't hurt you. Stop playing so hard to get. I promise you everything will be okay.

Me: uh, I don't know...

Blake: Jessica please... I really like you. And when I'm with you.. I forget about my dad having cancer. You take away all the pain.

Me: Blake please don't do this... Not right now.

Blake: let me take you out on a date, an official date. Please. Tonight.

Me: we have DJ'S party..?

Blake: who cares, we can have fun by ourselves.

Should I trust blake? He's known for playing girls, and I can't deal with any of that right now. But if I turn him down, I'll feel like a bigger bitch. I thought about it for a little. I finally had an answer for him...

Me: I would love you go out with you Blake.

I smiled and kissed him.

Let's see where this goes..