Confident ???

Just Being Honest

Aurora

Me: Dean why yo Cheerios ain't got the Lil Bee on it?
Stan: Cause he on a budget nigga damn
Dean: I'm not on a budget and stop cussin

I laughed as Dean gave Stan a death stare. Me and my Lil bro was at Deans house because he needed to talk to me about something and saw Stan walking  home when I was driving over here so I decided to take him with me. 

Me: I never heard of a top notch lawyer being on a budget.
Dean: I'm not on a fucking budget. I just dont discriminate against cereal. It all taste the same, the only difference is the name
Me: Bitch you guessin .. Anyway what was so important that you had to tell me in person but not on face time

I plopped down on his leather couch, he mimicked my actions and smirked

Dean: Okay look. Today I was at the office. You know finishing some paperwork, reviewing cases you know
Stan: As a lawyer should
Me: Stan..continue
Dean: Okay.. While I was working. My door flung open and guess who walked in?
Me: Chris Brown and Rihanna
Dean: No
Stan: Drake and Rihanna
Dean: what?? No
Stan: Rihanna and her Female lover
Dean: No it wasn't rihanna..it was Roger you dicks
Me: awe

I didn't mean to sound all nonchalant and uninterested but..hell I don't care. I don't care about roger anymore

Me: what did he want?
Dean: Oh my lord sis let me tell you. This man looked like complete shit first of all. He looked like he haven't showered in days, haven't had a descent hair cut in a while, and he was growing a beard..a dirty one..he just looked nasty
Me: Oh well god rest his soul and what not

I started examining my finger nails, I haven't had time to get them done..

Me: I need a manicure I mean look at this

I showed them my nails trying to forget the conversation

Stan: Look her fingernails dirty
Dean: and she ashy..wait stop trying to get out the conversation.
Me: okay..sorry..
Dean: Anyway I asked him what did he want and he told me..he needed you back..

Stans eyes widened..but I stayed neutral.. I don't care about roger anymore.

Dean: I told him to get the thought of you letting him back in your life outta his head.
Me: Go Dean, that's my brother
Dean: Yeah.. Don't speak to soon..he broke down crying in my office..I didn't know what to do...my conscious and good will kicked in and I may have told him..you might take him back if he cleans himself up, get a job because apparently he lost his..and just find himself..and maybe after that you would consider taking him back.

I didn't say anything for a while..I dont know why my brother would tell this man that..he gon get his feelings hurt once again..

Me: Dean..why would you sale that man a dream?? I don't want him..Even if he cleans himself up and get his life back on track I would never go back to him because he was the one who threw me away..I cheated on me..he left me..he gave up on me..
Dean: I know ..its just I'm a good person and I hate seeing someone I once knew hit rock bottom
Me: So you sayin  that I'm not a good person because I don't care to see someone I once shared a bed with hit rock bottom.. I have no emotions knowing he's hit rock bottom.. You do know there's a lower place than rock bottom right?? I told you before
Dean: Yeah you told me its Rock Bottoms Basement ..look just consider talking to him at least
Me: There ain't nothing to consider..I'm done..he's gone and I want him to stay gone

                     Omar ( Later)

I've been in a void.. A dark void for a while. Ever since Jen came at me side ways with this divorce shit it got me thinking. I don't want her to leave me. I know it's hypothetical of me considering the fact that I was thinking about divorcing her just to hide the fact that I wanted to cheat. But I never thought I would go through with it because I loved Jen..well love..I love my wife..

For the past few hours I didn't want to go home because I knew no one would be there.. So I decided to ride around..I stopped here a few hours ago..I don't know why but I just need to talk to her. I been waiting til she got home

You just played me for the last time
I'm done fucking with you
Keep coming with the same lines
Everything but the truth
You picked the wrong one, yea yea
You picked the wrong one baby
You just played me for the last time
I'm done fucking with you

I can tell that she love getting in her feelings in the car. She pulled up in her driveway.. She noticed me but stayed in the car. I know we haven't talked in a while..ever since she blew up on me about how me and Jen were in the past which I still feels like isn't enough reason to ignore me.

Aurora: why are you on my steps.

I was too deep into my thoughts that I didn't know she got out the car. I got up to my feet and Gave her a slight smile...

Aurora: Look I know I haven't been at work in awhile but I'll be there Tomorrow
Me: Thank you..although I came to talk to you about something else.
Aurora: I'm tired..
Me: It'll only take a minute..

She sighed and have me a nod

Me: I'm sorry for what i told you about Me and Jen's past..
Aurora: Look
Me: You might have thought it was wrong be for me-
Aurora: I don't care about that.. I really don't
Me: If you don't care then why did you bug up on me like some-
Aurora: Because it bothered me.. It bothered me that you felt like that towards the one you love..It bothered me that you didn't have the patience to consider what she wanted in life..it just bothered me..at the time.. Now. I just don't care
Me: Really?
Aurora: Yeah..I found out you were a closeted dick and I don't like that. I'm an asshole but at least I have concern and consideration for other people even when I don't want to

Shes acting really sensitive right now

Me: Wow..so what now. Look I care about you and I don't wanna really loose you over something that old, childish and none of your business if I'm being honest.

She stayed quiet for a minute and it made me feel a little uneasy.. All of a sudden she smiled at me and walked closer to me once were close enough for our breaths to touch, she wrapped her arm around my waist. I felt her pull me closer to her..or so I thought. I thought she was gonna pull me into a kiss but actually she pulled me off her stairs so that she could get into her house.

Got a nigga excited.. Before she closed her door she looked at me

Me: Since we're being Honest Let Me Just Say You Are The Most Selfish Person I Have Ever Met. Go Home

And with that she closed the door. I can tell she was hurt by my words..I didnt mean for it to come out the way it did but I was just...being honest