Lifted // Klance

Chapter ten

Your boyfriend is dead.

This is all your fault.

You spent so much time worrying about yourself that you wasted all your time left with him and now he's gone.

Darkness. Everything was pitch black. The only source of light was where I was standing. Everywhere I ran, the light on me follows. But there was no exit. It was like running in place without a treadmill.

I started to panic. My palms sweaty, my back goes wet. My clothes were ripped apart, fabric dangling from all places. My chest feels exposed under the ripped up shirt.

Where am i... how can I leave this place. Keith is dead. He got what he wanted. He wanted to fly. He flew into the light and now he's living where he always wanted to be. In the clouds. In heaven with the pure deceased people who once roamed the earth finding their purposes.

A vision of Keith seeps into my head. I shut my eyes stressfully.

He was baking something in his kitchen, no one else was with him. I smiled softly, he wore a pink apron, his hips swaying softly to some music. I watched peacefully as he spreads frosting over the cake. I wanted to be there to help him bake. To have my arms around him from behind and kiss him like some cliche couple.

The music suddenly turns hazy. I was confused. What is going on...

The cake slips from his hands and lands on the floor. At first, I assumed it was just a common mistake. But it was much worse. Sweat formed around my face and my anxiety increases. I want to go over there. Why can't I go over there.

He starts screaming again in pain, falling to the floor, clenching his chest.

"Keith!" I yelled, but I couldn't move. He didn't hear me.

My boyfriend laid on the kitchen floor lifelessly. My vision blacks out again and I cried alone.

My legs suddenly get pulled back. They are now chained to the ground, my body slams to the black floor like high power magnets and is now chained too.

A punch to the face. A kick to the gut. My tooth falls out and disappears into an invisible black void. I was screaming. I didn't know where and why. Why am I chained down. Why am I getting beaten up by nonexistence. Where am I. Why did my beloved Keith pass away so soon. I needed explanations.

"Who..." I whimpered. "Who's beating me up... stop... please... I want to live.."

God is hurting you. You're sinful and gay.

A voice echoes throughout the darkness. No... that can't be true. Gay is not a sin. I'm pure... my soul is pure... I have not sinned. I have not killed anybody or done anything purposely bad.

Countless rocks aims towards my face, piercing into my skin, I feel pain and liquid dripping down.

"Faggot!" Craig's voice.

"Not my son!" Now my father's.

Yes I am... I am your son. Pa and ma... you made me. You raised me. You took care of me for eighteen years and gave me your share of love and protection. I loved you back.

Look at us now.

You execrate me. Because you found out I loved men. Everything, every memory from my past years, all that love and care...

No longer matters to you.

Why can't you understand that i am still your son. Why can't you understand that nothing about me changed. I am still Lance... I am still Lance...

Why can't you accept me now the same way you did when you first brought me into this world.

Why can't you love me...

An image of a familiar baby flashes before my eyes. I was watching him from the short distance. I can not feel or interact with my surroundings. My vision was just a past memory that I couldn't remember clearly on my own.

A baby sits in the arms of my mother, messy haired and exhausted, drool clung from the corner of her dry lips to her hospital gown. She sat in a hospital bed somewhere in another part of Canada. My father sat next to her, his right index finger curled, caressing the sleeping baby's chubby soft cheeks gently.

I wanted to move but my body stays still and paralyzed. I was only able to watch from that short distance.

My parents were crying a little on the newborn baby. Tears drop slowly onto it's face, rolling down its chubby cheeks. It awakens and start wailing loudly.

"Lance..." they take turns kissing the top of his forehead.

The room turns pitch black again. I sat on my knees and stared down at my hands. Everything was so different back then. I closed my eyes and cried. Everything... is so different. Why can't happiness be permanent. Why must things change for the worst. What happened to the good relationship I had with my family?

Had time really passed by that quickly? From when I was a happy baby to breaking the bond with my family. Had Keith really passed already?

The ground beneath me starts to disappear and the next thing I knew, I was starting to fall from the blue skies at a fast speed. I closed my eyes and started screaming. Right before I hit the earth ground, my vision ends.

I sit up and in front of me was a dark forest. We were sitting outside of the hoedown on a wooden bench. The crickets chirped harmonically. By now, I was wide awake. My breathing was heavy. Was all that just a dream... perhaps a nightmare?

To my right, my arm muffled him. He inhales and exhales heavily, heart beating very slowly, undeviating. Head resting on my numb shoulder. Eyes were shut closed, his eyelashes slightly curled. Pink Lips slightly parted and wet from the saliva dripping down from it and upon the fabric of my shirt. I scrutinized my boyfriend's adorable facial structures under the low lights.

He was still here with me.

My nightmare reminded me of something.

There is not much time left for the two of us. It's my goal to do as much as I can with him. There is no time to be thinking about myself. That can wait. Everything he wants to do, I'll do for him. Every single experience he wants to try, I'll do my best to grant it. I can't be so overprotective anymore. No more challenges. No more hatred. That mistake seeped in my mind. I prevented him from being free.

I pressed my cheeks against his forehead and gripped the sleeping boy's hand a little tighter.

"I'll do everything I can for you... I promise."

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I'll let you guys interpret Lance's dream and its meaning on your own lol... ;)

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