You're Not Alone (Austin Carlile)

20. Crystallize

Title credit: Lindsey Stirling

Holly's POV:

The next morning I wake up without a headache, surprisingly. I try to leave the bunk but Austin pulls me into him more saying "nooooo" in a sleep coated voice. He's so flipping cute. I sigh in defeat and cuddle with him, he passes back out within seconds. I check the time and it's only 7. I decided to go back to sleep for a little bit, we don't have to be up for a few more hours anyway.

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Seeing I See Stars play live is the best thing ever. Yes, this is my first time seeing them live, I didn't get to watch them yesterday. They just finished playing one of their new songs 'When I Say Jump, You Say How High'. Their tech shoves an ear piece in my ear and hands me a mic.

"We need a female vocalist to sing Electric Forest with Devin, so we chose you, since we can't find Lights." He says, then walks away without another word, leaving me standing there dumbfounded. I'm freaking the fuck out. I can't sing in front of all these people! I mean yeah, I was in choir in high school, but that's different! This is with a band I've listened to for years, with hundreds of people watching. It's different when I'm dancing around Austin's room and singing the other version with him. Drew starts up the drums and I gulp down hard.

"You'll do great." Aaron and Austin reassure me, while giving me hugs. I give them a weak smile, my stomach doing flips. Devin starts singing an I brace myself to enter on my part. I can't believe I'm doing this.

(I love this song sorry I'm still so obsessed with it).

"It's almost dead silence when the lights go out

I like to make believe that I have the show shut down

'Cause then I feel relieved when the bass slowly sounds

A crystal light shines and echoes through the crowd." I take a deep breath and sing the part as I walk onto the stage towards Devin with some confidence.

"The people erupt and I become a part of the machine

that moves directly to the beat

and I am one with you and everyone who's heart is here." A smile creeps on to my face as I become more comfortable and bounce around the stage with Devin.

"Let yourself go, this is the only time to feel alive

This brings me out to you and I'll say

I'll scream it 'til my heart comes out of my chest

and leave it to the music to transcend the rest

This life is just a perfect fit

For a mess like me." We go back and forth with hand motions to each other and it's amazing to see how pumped everyone gets when you are having a blast. How is this even a job? It's so fun.

"{So many reasons to live; I need to to let them show

I've made the hardest mistakes; I need to let them go}

I feel the tempo rise. My eyes open wide

I feel the well that is my heart overflow,

And now I'm losing control

These flashing lights got me lifted off the ground

What could go wrong?

What could go wrong,

When all of us are together?

Never thought it would come down to this." Zach and Devin takes over.