Foreigner of Reality

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This goes out to the beautiful older girl who called me ugly at age four. To the chubby boy in fifth grade who called me an elephant. This goes out to the pretty "popular" girls in middle school who ignored and outcasted me for three years. To the backstabbing "best friend" who turned me to my self destructive tendencies after she blamed me for her suicide attempt. This goes out to the senior guys that made me terrified to come to school my freshman year. To the fuckboy I sat next to in art class that didn't understand the word "no". Thank you, honestly, thank you. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have my walls built up so high. Thanks to you I don't trust people and maybe for the right reasons. You all broke me apart piece by piece thinking it was no big deal, that I would be alright. Because of everything you did to me, I weakly attempted suicide twice, cut myself for two years, starved myself for four years, and hated myself immensely for over five years. I thought I was worthless, unimportant, waste of a life, bitch, whore. You don't understand what those little words and actions can do to somebody, how much it can ruin them. To you, my bullies, you wouldn't understand nor probably care about what you did. Frankly, I'm not even that mad anymore. It's in the past, you're in my past. I'll never forget nor forgive what you did to me. I just thought that maybe you should know how much you destroyed me.

Sincerely,

The girl you probably forgot about