Soft snores fill the room as I sip my coffee quietly and I smile, watching Sofia sleep.
"You should be sleeping" Arms slide over my shoulders, lips press against the skin just under my ear before Eliza moves around and sits on my lap.
"I can't. I'm mad, upset, confused and exhausted"
"What are you confused about? Coffee won't help" The mug is taken from my hands and placed on the table beside me, behind Eliza and she cups my right cheek, turning my face to her.
"Us. Are we going to last? All we do is fight, break up, have sex and then repeat"
"That's not true. We've had some good times."
"I've lost count how many times we've had an argument Eliza, it's only been a year"
"It's been over a year... Why propose to me if this is how you feel?"
"Because I can't lose you"
"I'm not going anywhere Arizona. If you need to step back and reevaluate, we will. Are you still mad at me?"
"I'm mad at me. I knew she was trying to get under my skin, to get in between us but I let her. I let her get into my mind and I pushed you away, I hurt you"
"I shouldn't have kept it from you. It wouldn't have happened if I had just told you in the first place"
"You should have told me but I understand why you didn't. I'm not mad at you. I promise. I'm mad at myself for letting stupid things get in the way of us, our happiness"
"So we stop doing that. No more secrets"
"No more secrets. Unless they are-"
"No. None at all. No matter what. We can handle anything together"
"What if it's big? Like so big no one knows about it except the ones involved"
"Tell me. Tell me right now"
"I have a son" She shoots up off my lap and stares at me, pacing. "I haven't seen him in 9-10 years"
"How old is he? Where is he?"
"14, God knows. She has full custody of him. That's why I came to Seattle. She took him and ran and after a year of searching for them I ended up in Seattle and met Callie"
"Does she know?"
"No, my parents don't either"
"How do they not know?" I stand up and take her hands gently, forcing her to stop pacing.
"It wasn't the best relationship. My parents don't even know I had a girlfriend then. She was horrible and if I told someone I was in a relationship they would know she was abusing me which would just make it worse on me. Then she got pregnant. I stayed for the baby. I took every single beating she gave me just so she wouldn't hurt him. And then because I never reported it she got him when I took her to court. He was 4 when she left"
"So you give me shit about keeping an abortion from you, one I had years ago and you've been keeping this a secret for 10 years! How is that fair?"
"Because I don't even know if he's alive. I doubt he remembers me if he is still alive"
"That's why you got really weird when Sofia said Penny was hitting her"
"I jumped in front of him when he was 2, she had swung a bat. If I ever actually get pregnant, it'll be a miracle if it survives. I can't stand people hurting children. So I do, I get weird when it happens. And I see red. Penny is lucky I haven't seen her since I found out"
"Arizona"
"Don't pity me. This is also why I don't tell anyone. But I wouldn't be surprised if your sister already knows" She sighs and pulls out of my hold, going outside onto the balcony. I sigh too and look back at Sofia, now sitting up and watching me.
"I have a brother?" Shit. Eliza looks back at me and slowly walks back inside.
"You shouldn't be listening to other people's conversations" I scold Sofia, joining her on the bed.
"Does Mom know?"
"No. And you can't tell her. She should hear it from me"
"Don't make her keep secrets. That's how it all starts" Eliza says softly, joining us on the bed.
"Callie should hear it from me so she will"
"I can't believe you kept this from me"
"Eliza"
"No. I just need a minute to take this all in"
"I'm sorry"
"I know. You both need to sleep, so come on" I climb under the blankets next to Sofia and pull the small latina into my arms.
"I love you Sof. More than life itself"
"I love you too Mama" I kiss her head before looking up at Eliza as she slides off the bed.
"Where are you going?"
"I'll sleep on the couch"
"Why? You can sleep with us"
"Are you sure?"
"Absolutely. I've missed sleeping next to you" I whisper and she smiles, squeezing in next to me, her arm wrapping around me as I pull Sofia closer.
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Going to end this soon, I haven't decided how I want to end it yet though. Thank you to everyone reading, voting and commenting, honestly makes my day seeing people read my stuff xx
_McDimples_ xo
