State Of Mind | sm + cc

:Fifteen:

          She's become my best friend. Something inside me wants us to be so much more. I can't hold back my love for Camila. However, I make it a point to put her happiness above all. If we don't marry, we don't marry. I try not to pressure her to do anything she isn't comfortable with. Maybe, one day, she and I can marry, but for now we will simply remain partners. Although she and I are close, I can't help but notice a slight change in tone in her voice. I might be nitpicking the things she does, but it's a significant change. This change would end up being one I would remember for the rest of my life.

Shut up. Don't tell me about being dramatic.
Blue, blue, blue.

"Shawn," Camila's voice called for me, ceasing the noise. My legs walked me to the bedroom where Camila was. Her small figure seemed frozen as she feebly smiled. I take my seat and anxiously await for her words. My Camila never acts like this.

"I... I'm not sure how to say this... I'm really nervous about how you'll react.. um," she loudly swallowed in nervousness before beginning to cry. Wrapping my arms around her body, I try to provide her with solace.

"You can talk to me." I calmly spoke as to not worry her. I turn her head to face mine and wipe the tears streaming down her cheeks.

"I don't even know why I'm crying ... please don't be mad..." Her lips pursed in an awkward manner as she fiddled with her thumbs. "I'd never be mad at you," I reply.

"Well... Shawn, I'm pregnant. Don't know how else to say that." She sniffled and lowered her head.

You'd make a terrible father.

Shut up!!

My heart skipped a beat as a my lips curved into a loving smile. Still in my embrace, I wrap my arms even tighter around Camila and kiss her head.

"You're not mad?" Camila confusedly asked.

"Baby," I placed a hand on her stomach region," I love you. Why would I be mad?"

"I don't know... I just figured since we aren't married and this was unplanned..."

"I love you and that's all that matters, you know. I love you and this baby." I leaned in and attached my lips to hers to further our connection. Her face gleamed with relief and excitement.

"Who else have you told?"

"Only you. My parents would freak if they found out."

"You'll eventually have to tell them, you know. And when you do, I'll be right next to you the entire time."

Right then and there I realized that Camila is the only woman I want to be with. And that baby, boy or girl, will be the apple of my eye.