I hate hearing "I hope you get better"
it's basically saying: "stop feeling this way"
it almost seems like I'm not aloud to have feelings. And feelings are something I have to have or I'd be so lost without them. Every time I explain to someone about how I feel the only reply I get is "I hope you get better" or "aw babe"
you clearly do not understand what my head and body are going through I am stuck in self mental violence and I can't help it.
even with my crohn's I explain that my body is slowly going against itself and that my body hates me and attacks itself daily all I get is "I hope you get better"
so you're telling me I hope I stop having what I have even though I can't stop? Thanks. It totally makes me feel good. Just like saying: "stop being sad" do you think I'm gonna be happy after you say that? Just because you told me to stop? I'm aloud to be sad. I am aloud to have emotions.
but to you, those don't matter. Because you think my life is perfect and there is nothing wrong with it. But honey, there is so much wrong with it.
as I was saying "getting better" is a wrong thing to say. I will say it to my friends when they are sad because that's what my friends like to hear but I myself hate it.
"stop feeling this way"
what is it annoying you that I have feelings? That I want to care for you and I want to cry about stuff with you.
I want to lay under the stars telling you exactly how I feel because you really don't understand.
no one does. That's why they think it's okay to say I hope you get better. Even though the last time I woke up happy and feeling good about myself was one random day in grade 5. Almost 4 years ago. That's a long time to be sad.
And no one cares. I am good at hiding it so people think I am the happiest person ever. When really I make everyone smile and laugh so they don't have to feel what I feel.
I laugh during the day but when I go home and I am trapped in my thoughts I rarely even wanna get out of bed in the morning and I really don't want to wake up the next morning that night.
Stop telling me "I hope you feel better"
