I just wanted to say I am sorry
I was awful to you
I threw you away and treated you like nothing
You were the best damn thing but I abused it
I'm not trying to say sorry because I'm sad and worthless, but I saw you as a person
You were so kind to me and I kind of threw you away
I am truly deeply sorry and I fucked up
I lost something that mattered so much to me
Yes I am crying as I am typing this
I wanted to make it up to you
Hangout with you more, talk yo you at school and actually act like a couple, but I couldn't
I was too caught up in being a self centered bitch that didn't care about how you were
All about me
I know I am not a nice person, and now I won't even talk to you
You still mean so much to me and it's hard to let that go
I am deeply sorry for how much of a horrid, awful person I am
I'm self centred and I pretended to not care about you
It breaks me to not even be able to look at you without tearing up
I didn't even treat you like a person
I know this sounds cheesy and stupid
But every little word I mean
You can try to talk to me in person whenever and wherever
I will try not to cry
I just feel so awful realizing and looking back I am awful
I can try to make you jealous all I can but it will never work because you have moved on
But I for a fact can never let go of anything
Whether the situation be the weight of a feather or boulder
I just can't
Again
I'm trying to just apologize
I am sorry for how I treated you
And I am sorry I am an awful person.
