I don't feel anything.
And that's fucking terrifying.
I found one person that made me feel human.
Made me have feelings. Real ones.
I am so fucking fixated on this one person returning to my life.
I shouldn't expect it to happen but I have so much hope you will return to me.
Call me yours again.
Hold me like you'd never let go.
Kiss me until I can't speak.
And you damn well know who you are.
You fucking took my heart, ripped it out and stomped onto it until there was nothing left.
And I know deep down I shouldn't fucking care about you.
You fuck around with girls, it's just who you are.
But if you ever said to me you wanted me back. I would give up everything to feel your hug again.
I never cry over things. I hate crying. It's painful.
But you are the one person I want to feel pain for
I still continue to give you my all
Because you're probably one of the people that truly know me
And kiddo, you know me so much better than I know myself.
I don't think I even know who I am personally
But YOU kiddo predict my every action.
You know kiddo,
I love you.
And love is fucking pain you gotta be willing to feel
And I feel the pain of loving you everyday.
So fuck you.
But I love you.
