Grayson's P.O.V
I have a sinful connection with someone I shouldn't. He doesn't suspect any of the feelings I have for him. He doesn't realize how much I love but not in the way that I should.
I've known my sexuality for a long time and I know that I'm attracted to guys. I've never liked girls in the same way I've liked guys but that's not the problem. My family and friends accept my sexuality but I've been hiding something for a long time.
My feelings for my twin brother Ethan. I've had this connection with him like I've never had with anyone. That foreign feeling he gives me is so truly special.
Ethan's my everything. But he doesn't know it.
"Hey bup. What you wanna do today?" Ethan nudges my shoulder asking me. "Hmmm can we just stay inside and watch movies?" I answer hoping he'd take my offer. "Anything for you." He says and shows off that beautiful smile with his teeth.
"What movies do you want to watch?" He asks again putting his legs over my lap as I sit up straight and he lays down on the couch. I look to the side and smile. Even the slightest touch by him makes me smile.
"How about Secret life of pets?" I answer in a childish voice. "Oooo I haven't seen it. Let's do it." He says swinging his legs off my lap and standing up going to get the disk.
I knew we had the movie, we just haven't watched it yet so today would be perfect to watch it for the first time.
"Alrighty the disk is in." Ethan does this little dance with his arms making me laugh and literally leaps onto the couch sitting pretty close to me almost touching my side.
The previews instantly begin playing but Ethan and I usually talk about random things during them so I'm hoping we can continue that today.
"C'mon buddy. Cuddle with meeee." Ethan says in a childish whiny voice. "Aren't we too old for that?" I say turning to face him. He squints his eyes at me like he's confused with what I'm saying.
"Nope never too old to cuddle." He wraps both arms around my waist and pulls me into his chest. A smile never leaves my face considering the strong feeling I have for him.
"Fineeee." I say and rest my head on his chest snuggling my head into it at the same time. "You know I love you right?" Ethan says and plays with my hair. My heart flutters at his words as I think about what we could be if he loved me the way I love him.
"Yes of course. I love you too." I say smiling but that smile disappears knowing he doesn't love me in the same way. "No I don't think you understand." He says honeslty getting my hopes up.
I lift my head up and sit down facing him, my legs swung over him lap. "What do you mean?" I say furrowing my eyebrows together in confusion.
"I need to tell you something." He says and grabs both of my hands intertwining them with his. I sit there looking at him in confusion but I never stop what he's doing even though this is wrong and sinful yet I want it.
"Go ahead." I say and squeeze his hands a little scared of what he's going to say next.
"I love you Grayson. I don't think you understand and I know this is wrong but I can't help my feelings for you. I've always liked you in a way that's not brotherly and I know this is sinful and horrible to feel these things but I can't help-" I cut him off by placing my lips against his.
The feeling I've wanted to experience for the longest time. "I love you more Ethan. I love you more." I say pulling away. We make eye contact before I connect our lips again wanting that same amazing again.
"Not possible." Ethan whispers against my lips sending a wave of love and happiness through my entire body.
I finally have what I've always wanted and that's my one and only, Ethan. My brother, my twin, my best friend, my true love, my everything.
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