"Ethan what are you doing in there?" Grayson asks his brother after he's been in the bathroom for over twenty minutes.
"U-uh nothing. Don't worry about it." The older twin answers dropping the crimson red razor blade into the sick.
"Ethan it's not nothing. Please talk to me." Grayson tries to convince him but Ethan doesn't bulge.
He keeps the door close not wanting to show him what he's really doing.
"No leave me alone." Ethan responds washing off his wrist.
He winces in pain as the accidental hot water meets his skin.
He hisses and hits the marble counter with his fist.
"What the fuck was that? Open the damn door." Grayson shouts now getting mad.
"NO GRAYSON GO AWAY!" Ethan yells back also getting pissed off.
"Fine." Grayson bluntly says and scoffs walking off from the bathroom still worried about his brother.
Ethan wraps a gauze around his cut up wrist and places both hands on his face letting out choked sobs.
Hot tears leave his eyes making them burn as he continues to sob not caring if his brother heard him or not.
No one likes him.
No one cares for him.
He can't get rid of the wrong feelings he has for his twin.
The incestuous feeling.
The sinful feelings.
He knows Grayson would never feel the same way so Ethan put up this wall.
He doesn't hang out with his brother anymore, he keeps his distance not wanting these feelings to grow stronger.
"Ethan? Please." Grayson asks knocking softly on the door.
Ethan washing off the blade and throws it back to its usual place pulling his hoodie over his head letting the sleeves covers his destroyed wrist.
He unlocks the door only to be met by the embrace of his brother.
Grayson immediately wraps his arms around his brothers waist hugging him tightly.
Ethan hugs back smiling into Grayson's shoulder.
"What were you doing Ethan? Please answer honeslty." Grayson pleads not letting go of his brother.
Ethan takes a deep breath and closes his eyes.
"You were crying. I want to know what's wrong." The younger twin adds.
"You wouldn't understand." Ethan answers pulling away from his brother.
Grayson looks him in the eyes and sees hurt.
He smiles at him in sympathy.
"Do you really want to know? Grayson, I promise you, you will hate me if I tell you. You'll probably kick me out or something." Ethan says and looks down.
"First of all, I could never hate you and I can't kick you out because this is your apartment too soo just tell me." Grayson responds getting curious with what it is.
Ethan looks his brother in the eyes and smiles in awe of the perfection staring back at him.
"You know I love you right?" Ethan asks.
"Of course and I love you too." Grayson smiles and puts a hand on his shoulder.
Ethan sighs and runs a hand through his sweaty hair.
"So lately I've been having these feelings. Feelings towards you. I know it's wrong but I can't help it. Grayson, you're my everything, my best friend, the one person that's always stuck with me no matter what. The feelings I've been having aren't good and that's why I've been keeping my distance from you. I don't want them to grow stronger than they already are. I don't want to have these feelings but I just can't help it. I can't help but smile at the thought of you. I can't help but stare when you walk in a room. I can't help but love you in a way I shouldn't. I love you so much more than a twin brother Grayson."
Grayson's eyes are filled with tears as are Ethan's as Grayson stares at him in complete shock.
'He feels the same way' Grayson thought tackling his brother into a hug.
He plants peppered kisses all over his twin brother face but never touching his lips.
Grayson lays on top of Ethan and grabs his face connecting their lips.
"I love you. I love you. I love you." Grayson repeats pecking his twins lips between every phrase.
"I didn't know you felt the same way." Grayson says sitting on Ethan's lap.
Ethan smiles and kisses Grayson's cheek.
"Grayson Bailey Dolan. Will you be my boyfriend?" Ethan asks as a smile never leaves his face.
Grayson's face lights up as he smiles widely.
"YES!" Grayson shouts completely happy.
Not one negative thought on his mind at the moment.
Grayson grabs Ethan's arm and pulls up his sleeve revealing his cuts.
Ethan looks at him in guilt and Sorrow.
The younger twin kisses each and every cut Ethan created on his precious body.
"Please don't ever do this again. You don't deserve this." Grayson says and pecks Ethan's lips once again.
"I promise."
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Word count: 805
This is kinda rushed sorry
