Haylee Quinn

Chapter Eighteen - The Thoughts Of The Joker

I stared down at Haylee as she slept peacefully on my chest. She's so beautiful, so perfect, so... innocent. Which is why I have decided to do what I've decided to do.

I'm going to take her back to her old life.

It's actually something I've been thinking about since she took that bullet for me back at the bank, the bullet that should have killed me. This is something I should have done ages ago.

Don't get me wrong, I love this girl a lot. More than I have ever loved someone before, even Harley. But that's why I have to do it, because I love her.

Trying my best not to wake her, I carefully moved her from on top of me to next to me. I slowly sat up and got out of bed, so many thoughts running through my head.

At the bank, she did the same thing Harley did to me that got her killed. What if that had of happened to Haylee? I felt bad about Harley's death, but that would just have been the icing on the cake.

I ran my hand through my hair and flopped down onto a chair I have in the corner of my room. Why do girls have to be so complicated?

I should never have brought Haylee here in the first place, it was so selfish of me. I thought that by bringing her here I could somewhat fix my mistakes with Harley, but I just did they same thing I did to Harley. Ruined her life.

No I can't let her go, I was an absolute mess when she left last time, and that was only for a day. I can't imagine how I'll be if she leaves for good.

No, I have to. I can't risk Davis and anyone else in Gotham to come after her and kill her because of something stupid I did. I know I promised her that I'll protect her, but her being here is what put her in that danger in the first place.

I looked over at her perfect sleeping body and frowned at her, knowing that I've messed up this innocent girl. I love her, and I know she loves me back, but that just makes this all the more harder.

Nodding and confirming my decision I got up from my chair and planted a gentle kiss on here lips before leaving the room. I headed into my office, once I arrived I sat at my desk and pulled out a piece of paper.

I'm going to take her back home while she's asleep, if I do it while she's awake she'll never agree to go.

I pick up a pen and start writing a note for her. Tonight will be the last time i see her in person, i hope.

That makes me sound like i never want to see her again, which isn't true. I want to spend all my life with her. But for her safety i can't ever see her again.

After about a good hour of writing the note, i was finally happy with what i have. I folded it up and slipped it into my pocket. I grabbed a bag which contains a few things i have to leave for her and then made my way back up to the bedroom to bring Haylee down and out to my car.

I carefully slid my arms underneath her and picked her up, the quietly taking her downstairs. Jonny was sitting in the living room, and once he saw me with Haylee he sent me a questioning look. I just shrugged it off and continued walking into the garage.

I was eventually able to open the car door and carefully place her inside. I gently closed the door and got into the drivers seat. I started up the car and made my way over to her old apartment.

Every now and then i would glance over at my sleeping beauty, and would rethink if this is a good idea or not.

Well I mean what if they find her again, and actually kill her. It would still be my fault because i left her. I broke my promise of protecting her, and i know she'll never forgive me for that.

No, that won't happen. I can't let that happen to her.

We pulled up at her apartment and i carried her and the bag up. It doesn't look like anyone is home, which makes this a whole lot easier. The getting in and out part i mean, not actually doing it.

I made it up to her room and got us inside, it was quite difficult with her in my arms. I brought her back into her bedroom and laid her down on her bed. I placed the bag and the note on the end of the bed and sat down next to her. Damn this girl is a heavy sleeper.

I brushed a bit of hair out of her face and pulled the covers over her. I have to keep reminding myself this is for the best, even though I just want to take her back home and we can cause some sort of havoc together. I'd like that very much.

I stared down at her and felt tears threatening to come out. I quickly did all the things I needed to do before I go then sat back down next to her. I carefully caressed her cheek and gently kissed her lips one more time.

"I love you Haylee Quinn."