CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE:
| lynette’s pov |
The thing that I’ve always been scared of happened. I’m sick, and it’s much even worse than that. I don’t even know what the fuck this is called anymore.
Was there something that I’ve done to deserve all of this? Because I don’t remember killing anybody or threatening anyone.
And that’s the thing about me– I don’t fucking remember anything else. All I can think of is the good, the good, and the good.
There’s not a damn thing about my pet dog dying or failing a major exam. I’m trying my best to recall something bad, anyone who has hurt me so much.
But all I’m left with is the dream I had before, and that’s all.
Calum– that’s all my mind is screaming. He’s the answer to all of this, but I’m afraid of knowing now.
Because it may just be a lie again, if I trust myself with all of this. I should ask my mom or a doctor. Just not him, just not what my thoughts are telling me.
Reaching for the pills on my side and the half-full glass beside it, I drink it.
I close my eyes.
I open them.
I close my eyes again.
I open them again.
And I see him.
I see him standing there, with a bright smile on his face.
I see him standing there, with sad eyes.
I see him standing there, fading away.
The knocks pounding on my door are what I hear now; it’s probably him, or I’m just imagining things again.
It’s not until I hear him shout for my name that I get up from my bed.
“Lynette! Open the door!” He sounds so concerned and angry that I know this time, it’s real.
Please, be real.
I opened it and found him, sweat running down his forehead as he pulled me in a hug. “You weren’t going to kill yourself, right?”
A dry laugh escapes my lips. “I want to, believe me.”
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