"I always thought Adam was my true love - that he was the only person that could make me feel alive. So when he broke up with me, my world fell apart and my heart shattered into a thousand pieces. I was lost without him.
He was the one that had...
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I haven't seen Jay for a whole week now and I could say the same about my brother. Every time I wanted to talk with him about the party, he fled out of the house for meetings with his manager or other "important" things. It was too bad that Alec didn't want to speak with me, but besides that I felt pretty pleased with the way the week has gone. Most of the time I went to the beach to swim, read a book or to see if Noah worked that day. Unfortunately I hadn't spoken to him yet.
As fast as I can I eat my breakfast and then grab my bag so I can leave the house early. I stop by the small café on the corner to get a coffee-to-go so I can get an extra jump start this day. 'Reighley right?' I recognize the girl with the pretty curls from the party at Jay's house. Abby – short for Abigail probably – I think Caine called her. 'Yes?' I answer and smile at her.
'Are you coming to the beach party tonight?' she asks and I sigh, shaking my head. 'I don't think so.' I didn't want to see Jay again and if that meant that I couldn't go to parties, then so be it.
'You should go, everyone is coming!' I quickly order a caramel macchiato and turn around to her again. 'I'm sorry, it's just–' I want to finish my sentence, but what could I say to her? That I didn't want to see Jay anymore? That I still hadn't figured out what happened between Noah and me? There were so many difficult things that I had to sort out.
'Do you know what I think?' She gently touches my shoulder, 'that you could use a girl-day.' I thank the waitress when my order is ready and wrap my hands around the cup. 'Well...' She clearly didn't want to hear no for an answer and interrupted me, 'and don't come up with excuses!' Just when I wanted to make up something. 'Okay than.' I agreed, but not in a very convincing way. She cheerfully clapped her hands, 'come on then, let's go!'
We went to Third Street Promenade in the heart of Downtown Santa Monica, accordingto Abby you could find a lot of amazing boutiques there.
'Where do you want to go? Sephora, Abercrombie & Fitch? Urban Outfitters?' Abby asks me when we find a place on the parking lot. Luckily we were early, it wasn't as crowded yet as it was normally. 'Uhm, I don't know.' We get out of her car and she looks at me in an observing way. 'Don't you like shopping or something?'She sounds upset and I get the feeling she things she did something wrong.
'No it's not that!' I quickly say to reassure her, 'it's just that I don'treally need anything.' That makes her smile again. 'Sweetie, a girl alwaysneeds something, you will see.' She said in a wise voice, with a knowingsparkle in her eyes, like this was some sort of big "girl-secret" that now wouldbe unraveled soon. We walk towards the stores and my mind starts wanderingwhile Abby gossips about some boy that she met on Jay's party. Would he still be angry at me for the way Ireacted that night? I couldn't let it go, it only puzzled me more withevery day that went by. '...we kissed and it was so romantic, you should haveseen it, the way he hold onto me...' she sighs dramatically, 'the stupid thingis, I don't have his phone number and he doesn't have mine.' She glances at me,'are you listening?'
When I don't reply immediately, she starts laughing. 'Oh-my-lord, you're in love!' she states with enthusiasm, looking like a child on Christmas. 'Tell me,who is it?' I feel a little overwhelmed by her and don't know what to say for acouple moments. 'I can't tell, it's so stupid.'I eventually admit, which only made her more curious about it. 'Come on Reighley,I will keep it a secret, pinky swear!' She wiggled with her little pink, a big smile on her face. 'I won't judge, I promise.' What are you afraid of? You can tell her. Of course my inner-selfhad to interfere.
'Okay...' I say in a soft voice, almost whispering to her. She leaned closer so she could hear me. 'Something happened between me and Jay.' Her relaxed smile had been replaced with a stern expression. 'Jay Steele you mean?'
I want to sink through the ground and disappear. 'Yes...'
'He isn't someone you play with without knowing the rules Reighley', she warned me, 'what happened? Did you have sex with him?'
I shake my head, feeling totally embarrassed. 'No, nothing like that. But there was something, it's difficult to explain.' I stammer quickly.
She looks relieved to hear that and gently squeezes my hand, 'he has a serious reputation with women Reighley, and don't think that's only based on rumors. When he wants you, he will do everything in his power to get you. Jay is manipulative as the devil, don't ever...' she looks me right in the eye, 'ever, believe anything he says or does. Because he will eat you up and spit you out, throw you away like you're nothing more than trash.' She blinks and for a moment I thought I saw tears in her eyes. 'Trust me Reighley, you're not the first girl he laid eyes on.'
Okay so DON'T EVER TRUST JAY, he's like a manipulative bastard... mhhh do you believe that? I'm curious about your answer so don't forget to comment on this chapter! XOXO ;)
