"I always thought Adam was my true love - that he was the only person that could make me feel alive. So when he broke up with me, my world fell apart and my heart shattered into a thousand pieces. I was lost without him.
He was the one that had...
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I never believed in "and they lived happily ever after", hated almost all love songs and movies in which everyone ended up together. I was always the tough girl, the one who picked up the pieces and brought it back together herself after a breakup. I'd never been a mess like this before, crying over a guy, feeling miserable because of a broken heart. I was angry, furious, I hated him because of what he'd done. But the thing was: every time I thought about him, those feelings melted away like snow in the sun. I couldn't forget him or the moments we had shared together. Once he had been a part of me, and that was ripped away now so I could never be whole again. An unpleasant feeling that made me want to crumble to a corner covered in shadows. My phone beeped for the third time in a couple of minutes, I didn't have to watch to tell who was calling, I already knew. Adam deserved this, being held in the dark like he had done with me. My brother observed me, as if he was trying to read my mind. I could tell that he was failing completely. Yesterday we both crashed on a couch and we still lay on the same place, looking at each other without saying a word. I didn't want to be the one breaking through the silence, so I simply waited until he would say something.
'So Noah...' That was the moment we both laughed. God, I missed this, having fun with my brother and laughing about stupid things. We'd always been so close when we were younger... My mother was right; this was the perfect opportunity for brother-sister bonding. 'Yeah what about him?' I asked nonchalant, of course making a total fool of myself while trying. Not that it bothered me. 'I saw the two of you...' He wiggled with his eyebrows exactly like Noah had done. I pointed my middle finger at him as reply.
'Nothing happened Alec, let it go.' I walked to the kitchen, going straight for the refrigerator. I hoped he had some yoghurt and fruit for breakfast. 'I can't!' I heard him shout, 'I keep replaying the scene over and over again in my mind. Ugh, one of my best friends and my little sister, so awful!' I rolled with my eyes and threw an apple to his face, unfortunately he caught it before it could hit him. 'Try again.' He grinned at me. Oh, he shouldn't have said that! Now it became a competition... As fast as I could, I threw more apples at him, he evaded almost all of them, except the last one. I hit him on his shoulder and cheered in victory, he applauded for me, 'you should go to the Olympics for apple throwing, I bet you could win a golden medal.' I wished there were more apples to throw at him.
'You're crazy', I snapped at him. As an answer, he lifted his eyebrow. 'I'm the crazy one? Who was throwing apples a second ago? You remember.'
It worked, all of it. I wanted to deny it, but I couldn't any longer. My brother was an amazing person and he had done great by trying to show me that. I should apologize for my awful behavior on our way to Santa Monica. It was stupid and foolish of me to take it all out on him, while I should have been grateful. He let me stay at his place, bought me a ticket and got all the other things I needed. And had I thanked him for it? No.
'Alec...' I began, feeling ashamed of myself. He closed the distance between us and took me in his arms, hugging me firmly. 'I know pumpkin.' I melted by hearing the old nickname he had once given to me when we were both younger. 'So you know, don't say that to me when other people are around, deal?' He let go of me and picked up one of the apples on the ground. I should probably clean everything up.
'Deal, if you promise to keep your mouth shut about the thing, and I know you know what I mean.' I tried not to giggle when he mentioned the thing. He was right, I knew what he meant. Seven years ago, when my brother turned eighteen, he had a so called "experimental phase" in which he discovered he was absolutely not gay. The thing was that he really hadn't known it for sure, so he dated with a few boys and even kissed with some of them.
'So you don't miss Dave and Tyler? I could call them to ask if they want to come over.' I winked at him, knowing he couldn't laugh about this, what made it even more fun to me. I grabbed his phone from the sideboard and started dialing a random number. He threw an angry glare at my direction and snatched his phone back, 'you know I don't want to talk about this.' I guessed that he would change the password on his phone later so he could make sure I couldn't really call one of them if I wanted to. Stupid brother, always so serious about this topic. 'Alec, what you did isn't a strange thing, everyone experiments.' I wanted to challenge him so he would talk about this with me. I was his little sister, he could trust me! 'Ugh', he shuttered, 'now I have the scene of you and Noah in my mind again.' Quickly I picked an apple of the ground that lay before my feet and threw it at his face. He hadn't seen it coming, so the expression on his face was worth a million.
'Oh you're going to regret that', he threatened with a low voice, sneaking closer to me as if he was planning an attack. Before I could run away, he grabbed me en threw me over his shoulder, making me scream in fear. 'Let go of me!' I shouted at him, slapping him on his back as hard as I could. 'Never!' He shouted back laughing.
He walked through the house with me, till we were outside. 'Do you want to bath?' I didn't had the time to react, because he tossed me already into the swimming pool. I yelled and splashed as much water around as I could, hoping he would become wet. He knelt at the edge of the pool to look at me and I saw my change. I shot forward, grabbing him by his arm in the progress and pulled him down. He fell into the water and now it was my turn to laugh, 'you should've seen that coming.' I said amused when he looked angry at me. 'These clothes are worth a fortune', he brought out in despair, as if his wet clothes were the end of the world. 'Could the two of you please stop yelling and screaming at each other? Some people want to sober up in peace.' We were both startled by Jay's sudden appearance, where did he come from? Oh, that's right... we were neighbors, I thought sarcastic. His voice was amazing, but beside that I knew he was an arrogant jerk, this action of him proved that again. 'Come on Jay, don't be a douchebag', Alec said, 'jump in the pool, the water is amazing.' He gestured to me, 'I bet Reighley could beat you easily with our game.' I know what Alec was doing, he was trying to outbrave Jay. Please, let him just walk away, please let him leave, I begged in silence. When he looked at me, it was almost as if he heard my thoughts, he smiled darkly. 'I don't think so', he replied, still looking straight into my eyes, just like he had done yesterday when he had sang his song.
He pulled the shirt he was wearing over his head and threw it on the ground, before I could even find the words to describe what I saw, he had almost stripped of all of his clothes. 'Is that really necessary?' I muttered more to myself than to anyone in particularly. 'Yes it is', Jay whispered to me, suddenly extremely close, what made me uncomfortable. 'The game is pretty simple sweetheart', he explained in a husky voice, making me shiver in a pleasant way. 'The person who catches the other wins...' And with that, it was game on. Alec encouraged me by yelling; 'come on Sis!' and 'I know you can win!' My heart rate increased, pumping adrenaline through my veins, which made me go faster. Jay was right behind me, I could almost feel his fingertips on my back. When I lost my breath completely, I dived underwater, turned quickly around and jumped on top of him. I had the element of surprise, but he was much stronger. As fast as I could, I wrapped my legs around his neck, making him topple. But I cheered too soon, he grabbed me and reversed the roles. 'I never lose', he whispered in my ear, pushing my body against the edge of the pool. I could feel his soft skin and the strong muscles underneath it, which made me gasping for air. 'L-let go of me.' My voice trembled. He gave me his dangerous smile, 'for now...'
Oeehh sexy... This will make things difficult for sure! P.S I never wrote in English before so this is really a challenge for me, if you see any grammatical mistakes, please report it (so I can learn from it and rewrite all the bad stuff), XOXO
