insane • g.dolan

day 6

day 6

grayson wasn't in his room again this morning. i'd hoped that maybe he had some other family matter to tend to but that didn't seem the case as i neared his room, i saw a piece of paper lay on his made up bed. this time it wasn't a poem, it was a letter, addressed to me.

dear lex,

i never really told you what made me like i was, apart from the fact that it involved my brother.

my brother too suffered depression. seems like a recurring subject at the moment doesn't it? well, me and him were in the car one day, heading to complete our latest and what we didn't know would be our last adventure. he was driving, and he crashed the car, purposefully.

i was later told that he had the intentions of killing me because he could no longer let me watch him suffer. truth is i never knew he was so unwell. i just wish he would've told me because maybe then my bestfriend would still be here.

anyway back to the purpose of this letter. as you can see, i am no longer with you. i'm okay with this though because i decided that it was my time to go and be with my brother again.

i would always see a lot of me when i would look at you. in the sense that ethan helped me make my final decisions and i hope that i can help you make yours.

stay. do it for me. i always knew you were a lot stronger than i was, a lot smarter. after all i didn't even last a week with you in there. and i can't wait to watch you from up there get better and live your life to the potential i know you can.

the final thing i would like to say is that i'm sorry. i'm sorry you had to be in the company of such a weak person like me. thank god i'm gone now, eh?

one thing i regret not telling you is that i loved you. quick, i know. but you made my last six days better than i could have ever imagined. and i know that a beautiful soul like you would have never loved someone like me.

after all i was just an insane boy falling in love with a slightly more sane girl.

grayson