Eventually || Kim Samuel {COMPLETED}

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"It feels strange to be back here." I sighed to myself as I placed my things back to my old room.

"I miss the guys already." I lied down on the made bed and scanned on my sns.

It was actually a majority of Samuel oppa's updates by fans. I really salute fans who go through such measures just to get a glimpse of their idols.

I sighed to myself when I saw him hugging a fan in Hong Kong. If only I was the one dancing beside him, it would've been better. I'm pretty sure that almost everyone would be willing to get hit for a hug from him. Even I want to, but I already chose to stay away.

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2 years and 6 months later

"Lee Dana!" Jaemin jumped to my arms in glee.

Her eyes were full of tears and her hug was so tight that I wasn't able to breath for a few seconds.

"Aigoo, Jaemin-ah." I caressed her back lightly as she continued to sob in my arms.

I grabbed the bag that I dropped again and walked hand in hand with Jaemin.

"It was so boring without you." She pouted at me and talked so fast after everything that happened.

"Where's your boyfriend?" I wiggled my brows at her and her flushed self was always so refreshing to see.

After all this time, she still act like Justin is the best thing that has happened. Her cheeks would heat up every single time.

"He has schedules today." She dragged me to her newly purchased car.

I gave it a whistle seeing that it was the baby that she was always hoping to have.

"I see that you have finally achieved it." I gave her a wink and got inside the passenger's seat.

Yes, she was driving.

"I just can't believe it. After all the stress in medical school, my parents gave it to me as a token of getting the top spot." Her eyes had glinted so much.

It is actually going to benefit me. If I have a doctor close to me, then I won't have to worry at all.

"I'm so proud." She grinned at me and turned tbe engine on.

We drove away from the airport, my heart thumped knowing that I was finally back.

"What about you businesswoman?" She passed me some fries and I had become so giddy.

"I'm going to finish college here so I will be inheriting my parent's company." I sighed in content as I consumed my food.

"What about Samuel?" I never wanted her to ask that.

I haven't talked to him for two years, I only hear news about him through fans and I have become so afraid to talk to him.

Two years. The amount of time had already passed and I was finally back where I always wanted to be.
Back in America, I had focused on my studies and went from country to country.

His messages have remained unread. I was afraid that if I opened them, I would break down my walls and go back. It was very hard to control myself, the loneliness I felt was immeasurable and I cried myself to sleep almost evrry night.His cuddles and kisses was what I totally longed for, I had grown too attached to him and I just realized it right after leaving Korea.

It was a very hard decision to make. His picture was what I placed on my pocket and I would look at it everytime I was about to lose myself. His words made me nearly give up but I could remember everyone's faces. The look that they gave me made me stand strong, and what my parents had implemented all this time made me fight back.

I didn't want to go back without earning anything. And now that I finally achieved something, I could face them and stand for myself.

Actually, I was already approved to start managing the company. My marks were way ahead than others, mainly because I made myself be drowned in studies and I never get out of my house.

Even though I can start working, I believe that it was better to really finish college.

"We haven't talked at all." I avoided her eyes and pinched the fry that I was holding.

I wondered everyday about his well being, his whereabouts and how he was feeling.His pictures that I see online had looked so well,but I can see the face that he really wore with those mask.

His eyes that drooped after hearing me going away, how his eyes teared up and his sniffing that makes me guilty.

Even if I stood up to my decision, it was actually making me afraid if I did the right decision. No one knows if he's already seeing someone else, I'm too afraid amd craven to know too.

I knew that my world will fall apart if he did find someone else. Because for the past two years, I never looked at anybody else and I rejected every single offer that came my way.

"I wanted to tell you that he was always asking how you were, you never even replied to any of his texts. I think you went too far." We were stuck in traffic and it was now a vague topic since it had been awhile now.

"I was afraid. That when I read them, I won't stick up to my decision." I sniffed quietly and wiped the forming tears in my eyes.

"He was becoming desperate by the day, I wanted to tell him so much about you but even you shut me out and did not reply for a couple of months." The rain had started to fall.

It was totally joining my mood.

"I won't be able to stay there then, the loneliness was killing me and if I talked to you, I would cry myself more for missing so many things.I controlled myself from garnering information about you guys because it was too much to handle. I nearly got into depression." The road had finally cleared up and the drive was now backto normal.

"He cried in front of me Dana. He looked so lost without you." She took my hand and squeezed.

Jaemin wouldn't be aware of what Samuel oppa and I are experiencing. The gap between us had widened so much because of me.

"I wanted to go back every single day, but I made myself believe that if he really was what I need, then I'll be able to come back."

She nodded at me and continued to drive.

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"We will have a welcome party for you tomorrow so you better get ready." Jaemin dropped me at my Grandmother's house.

The one across the street made me reminisce all the memories that I made with him. I stared at the house after Jaemin left until finslly going inside.

"Halmeoni, I'm back!"

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Yes peeps. She's back. No more drama but a hint of it is still there.

Thank you for always supporting this story. Don't worry this is not the end yet. But I'm planning to end this soon.

Thank you for rrading Eventually

-Authornim