It's a HUMAN that ASKS

I cant

CZ: In middle school, I had a friend,

She was very self conscious about herself, super shy and smart, and waaaaaay shorter than me.

I remember on the last day of school before promotion, she told me her mom started drinking and said she didn't love her anymore, her father was the only one that cared for her.

So she became depressed, suicidal at some point, Like she just wanted to stand there and stare at everything happen right before her, just empty.

But what broke my heart he most is what she told me in the school yard before we all walked home.

I told her "Goodbye ____ I love you!"

And I huggged her tightly, but that time it was different, she started to cry.

I asked her "what's wrong?"

She started crying more and fell and then I got really worried, but I was still hugging her. She only whispered in my ear. And what she told me is something I will never forget In my life, and it meant a lot to me.

She said "I'm sorry, it just feels like every time you hug me, it makes me feel like you actually hug me, I miss that"

And I was so heartbroken for her, I always hugged her at the most random times, I do that with everybody at school....it's just...this time it was really different. I haven't heard from her again, but I'm really worried, and I'm scared for her.

She said she was sorry

Because it's almost like you love me

It kinda made me angry though, Who the hell said I didn't love you! Of course I love you and I always will, Just like everyone else, she was no exception. But she was so, so, *sigh* what's the word....

Broken...like she was trying to find the pieces but to scared to get cut from the glass.

I miss her, I want to hug her again and say it's okay, that there's someone here for you.

But I can't.