I'm Lost Without Your Love (Trixya)

Chapter 6- You're A Child/Home Sweet Home

(Trixie's POV)

"This is not going to work" Brian complained as he tried to sit up in bed, trying to let his legs dangle "it will work, just have faith in me as your boyfriend" I laughed and sat next to him.

"But I don't trust you and you know I hate being touched" he whined "will you stop complaining and cooperate with me" I asked he nodded and rolled his eyes at the same time. 

I wrapped his right arm around my shoulders and made sure it was secure enough around me so I could help him up. 

"Alright, are we ready" I asked glancing over at him "I guess so but please don't drop me" he panicked "I'm not going to drop you and if I was going to then you would only land on the bed" I said rolling my eyes.

"But its still scary shit" he whined I rolled my eyes at him because I knew how much of a child he was being. 

"Alright just stay calm" I said and stood up, lifting Brian up with me.

"Ow, holy shit my legs" he whimpered and sat back down upon the bed with me following. 

"Baby, are you okay" I asked "my legs really fucking hurt" Brian whined "how badly do they hurt" I asked "I don't think I can walk to the car hurt" he said I sighed.

"Alright I'll carry you" I said and picked him up bridal style; he clung onto my neck and buried his face in the crook of my neck as I walked out of his hospital room. 

"I can't believe I'm doing this, you are such a child" I laughed and walked into the elevator and let Brian press the ground floor. 

"You are aware that I don't care that I am a child" he laughed "I am aware of that but I still love you anyway" I smiled and pecked his cheek. 

The elevator came to our floor and I walked out and exited the hospital into the parking lot to my car. 

"Can I ask you a serious question Trix" Brian asked as I got to my car "what's up baby" I asked. 

"Do you ever think I will overcome my drug addictions" I asked "I will make sure you overcome them and for good this time baby" I smiled and opened the door and placed him into my car and shut the door. 

I walked over and got in my side of the car and started it up; preparing to drive home. 

"I love you Brian and I'm so happy that you are going to help me" Brian smiled "I love you too baby, just relax for me now" I smiled and pecked his lips he smiled and strapped himself in, avoiding his little wounds that had the blood transfusion and IV drip. 

I drove out of the parking lot of the hospital and started to drive home to my house. 

I finally got home and for the first time since I took Brian to hospital, I felt relaxed and at peace with myself knowing that Brian was awake and I haven't lost him to his overdose. 

I will help him overcome his bad addictions; even if its the last thing I ever do because I love him and from now on, he will be my number one priority. 

"Ah home sweet home" I smiled as I parked my car in my driveway "so this is my forever home now" Brian asked glancing over at me.

"Til we grow old together and then suddenly die" I smiled he grinned and leaned in to kiss my lips I kissed him back and felt a surge of lust course through me. 

We pulled away and I smiled knowing for so long I have been suppressing my feelings for him and now he's finally mine. 

"Babe" Brian knocked me out of my thoughts "yeah baby" I asked "are we actually going to go inside or just remain in the car" he asked "oh sorry, yeah let's go" I laughed nervous and got out of the car and walked over to Brian's side. 

I opened his door and picked him up bridal style into my house; he smiled once I entered the house and he grinned even more when he saw his favourite blanket upon the couch. 

"Baby, you didn't have to get my favourite blanket" Brian smiled as I walked over to the couch and gently placed him upon it. 

"Actually I got a lot of your stuff from your house, clothes, your laptop, some blankets and pillows; just your main things really" I smiled sitting next to him on the couch.

"Did you get my Xbox and my games because that's a main thing" he asked "yes I did get your Xbox and the games" I smiled "aw, thank you baby" Brian smiled and leaned in resting his face upon my shoulder.

"Its alright baby; I just want to make sure now that you are safe and not causing any damage to yourself" I said and wrapped my arms around him. 

"I love you so much Trix" he smiled and kissed my cheek "I love you too Kats" I smiled "so, should we order some pizza" I asked "can we can we" Brian smiled excitedly.

"Of course we can babe, I'll order now but will you promise me one thing" I asked "what baby" he asked "please stay on the couch and have couch rest" I asked.

"For you I promise baby" Brian smiled and pecked my lips "that's my baby" I smiled and got off the couch to get my phone from the kitchen. 

"Do you want your usual order" I asked walking back to the couch "yes girl, my usual pizza and garlic bread please" Brian smiled I smiled and went to order the pizzas and extra food that we have. 

"Okay the food is ordered" I smiled once I got off the phone "yeah, I feel like Adore now because girl she loves her pizza" Brian smiled as I sat on the couch "please for my sake don't turn into Adore" I laughed.

"I don't think there's much chance of that happening" he laughed and switched on Netflix "what do you want to watch tonight" Brian asked "we could watch season 5 of Drag Race" I smiled. 

"Okay but I may or may not fall asleep" he smiled I smiled realising just how cute my Brian was. 

"What are you smiling at" Brian asked knocking me back into reality "just realising how cute you are my Love" I smiled and leaned in, kissing him ever so gently. 

"Aw baby, don't get all soppy on me now" Brian laughed and wrapped his arms around my neck. 

"Now, would I really get all soppy on you" I asked caressing his cheek "sometimes I wonder if it might happen" Brian smiled and pecked my lips and suddenly the doorbell chimed.

"Oh pizza is here" Brian smiled excitedly "stay on the couch you Russian hooker" I laughed he groaned as I got up and I went to the door to get the food. 

I paid for the food and shut the door, walking into the living room and setting the food upon the coffee table. 

I sat back on the couch and curled up to Brian as he clicked on Drag Race; we both opened our pizza boxes and our extra food, starting to stuff our faces. 

"Mmm, this tastes amazing" Brian said with a mouth full of food "firstly, don't eat with your mouth full, its disgusting and secondly I will not be cleaning up after you" I said Brian laughed but didn't really take me seriously. 

After we had our food; I put the empty pizza boxes and garlic and fries boxes into the kitchen and walked back to the couch to see Brian falling asleep. 

"Is my baby tired now" I asked sitting back on the couch "I want to sleep now but before I do; thank you Brian for everything you have done these past few days" Brian smiled. 

"Don't thank me baby; I love you and I want to make sure you are okay" I smiled and held his hands "Brian, I couldn't live without you because as much as you're a pain in my ass, I love you" I said.

"I'm so sorry you saw me overdosed like that, I wish you'd have never seen me like that" Brian sighed.

"Baby, its okay; its over now and I just want you to focus on getting better" I said Brian smiled and he crawled over to me and rested his head upon my lap and wrapped himself in his blanket. 

"I love you baby, sweet dreams" I said and kissed his cheek "I love you too babe" Brian smiled and closed his eyes. 

I turned my head towards the TV, trying to focus on whatever episode of Drag Race was currently playing. 

Eventually I heard the soft snores of Brian peacefully asleep; I smiled down at him and kissed his cheek lightly.

"I love you baby" I smiled and closed my eyes; eventually falling asleep too.