I'm Lost Without Your Love (Trixya)

Chapter 7- I'm Frightened/Where Is The Movie Contact

(Katya's POV)

It wasn't a dream; Brian is really mine and to know that he's felt the same way makes me feel so loved inside. 

I can't thank Brian enough for what he has done these last few days but I can't deny that I don't feel remorse and stricken for letting him witness me, overdosed on the floor with a needle by my side. 

I feel absolute sick to my stomach knowing he has witnessed that and I'm so frightened that he's going to see me like that again and I just can't have that. 

I already feel so remorse from the first time he saw me overdosed like that and honestly I don't know what he will think if he sees me the second time overdosed. 

I had just woken up on the couch; I was wrapped within my favourite blanket and I had Brian asleep in between my legs and his head resting upon my stomach. 

I smiled down at him and started to stroke his hair lightly, trying not to disturb him from his peaceful sleep; that failed though because as soon as I started to stroke his hair, he moved his head. 

"Morning baby" Brian's sleepy voice coursed through my ears; damn his voice is so sexy. 

"Morning human barbie doll" I smiled as he turned onto his stomach and faced me "call me that all you want because I won't take offence to it" Brian laughed and rested his chin upon my stomach. 

"I wasn't trying to offend you, I love my human barbie doll" I smiled and tried to peck his forehead but that failed as I couldn't reach properly. 

"You are a pain in my ass but I wouldn't change you for the world" he smiled I smiled and caressed his cheek; damn he's so cute. 

"So, what do you want to do today baby" Brian asked getting off the couch "I don't know" I sighed and flipped over to my stomach and rested my head upon the arm of the chair to glance at Brian. 

"There must be something you want to do today" Brian asked putting the kettle on in the kitchen "I can't think of anything to do, LA sucks sometimes" I said.

"I'm sure we can think of something today" Brian smiled and walked back into the living room with two cups of coffee and he placed them upon the coffee table. 

"Babe, can I ask you something" I said getting up from my stomach and I sat cross-legged next to him.

"What's up baby" he asked wrapping his arms around me and pulling me into his lap so my back was against his chest.

"I know I should probably not ask this but do you ever consider...rehab for me" I asked relaxing in his arms "why would I consider rehab for you" Brian asked grabbing my hands "because...I know that..." I sighed.

"Brian, what's wrong baby; you can tell me anything" he said but I could hear the seriousness within his voice.

"Brian, I'm so frightened that you will..." I sighed as I felt tears falling upon my cheeks "what are you frightened of Love" Brian asked I sighed.

"I'm frightened that you might...see me...overdosed again" I sighed and let my tears fall "baby, that isn't going to happen again" Brian sighed and cuddled me tighter into his arms. 

"What if it does happen again" I sobbed "because I will make sure that it doesn't happen, I love you Brian Mccook and you're my number one priority" Brian said squeezing my hands tight to give me comfort and reassurance. 

"I'm so sorry for all this mess I've caused; I should be the one facing the consequences not you" I sighed.

"Brian, I don't fucking care; we are in this together until the day we both die because I am not leaving you" Brian smiled and kissed my temple. 

"I love you and no matter what happens; I will always be here to catch you when you fall" he said and brought my hand to his mouth and kissed it. 

"I love you too Brian Firkus, thank you" I smiled and started to caress kisses upon his neck. 

"I have an idea, how about we go out for breakfast since we haven't really had a proper date yet have we" Brian smiled "oh, I would love that; can we go now" I asked getting excited "of course we can baby, let's go and get ready first" Brian smiled and shoved me off him.

"Ow, that hurt bitch" I laughed as he got up from the couch "I don't really care, I just care about food" he smiled and started walking upstairs I smiled and got up from the couch and followed him upstairs. 

I followed him into a room and I was met with a king sized bed, a giant ass TV on the wall, an en suite and a walk in closet. 

"How come I've never come into your bedroom before" I asked relaxing on the bed "because I've never been able to trust you with my stuff" Brian laughed walking into his closet.

"I can actually agree with you on that one" I smiled and followed him into his closet and I noticed something...my clothes. 

"You hung all my clothes up" I asked "I did because you know I'm a freak when clothes are not in perfect condition" Brian laughed "so what did you do with my drag" I asked starting to look at my clothes. 

"Its in my drag room with the rest of mine, don't worry they are separate" he smiled pulling out some clothes "that's fair enough then" I smiled and pulled out a black and white checked shirt, my black jeans and my converse. 

"Where did you put my underwear" I asked exiting the closet "just in that draw" Brian pointed to the opposite side of the room; I walked over and pulled out some socks and boxers. 

I started to get changed and I noticed Brian staring at me with those fuck me eyes; I've seen those eyes quite a lot in our friendship since we met on Drag Race. 

"Are you okay there" I asked buttoning my shirt up "yeah, I'm fine" he smiled and started to get dressed; yeah I knew you were perving. 

We both soon got ourselves ready and Brian decided on a little make up so while I was waiting for him; I was looking in the bag that he brought my stuff in. 

"So you've got my Xbox and my laptop which I'm happy" I smiled sitting on his bed "yeah and there's a but coming right" Brian laughed as he finished the last of his make up.

"Yeah, you didn't bring one of my favourite games" I sighed going further into the bag "aw, I'm sorry baby; we can go back to your house and get it if you want" Brian smiled walking over to me and sitting on the bed.

"Okay, I need to get my car and a few other things at the house anyway" I smiled "alright, we can go on the way back from breakfast" Brian smiled going into his en suite "okay baby" I smiled and dug deeper into the back and I was faced with horror. 

"BRIAN FIRKUS, I WANT A WORD" I screamed "what is it" Brian asked exiting his en suite with confusion and worry within his voice. 

"You didn't bring my Contact" I asked "I wish you were referring to your contact lenses but I know you aren't" Brian laughed "still care to explain why you haven't got my movie Contact" I asked. 

"Because I wasn't going to have that thing in my house when I already see it at 'WOW Presents', no way" Brian laughed "we are getting that movie" I said and exited his room and went downstairs; Brian followed me downstairs and we both walked outside to Brian's car. 

I got in the passenger seat and waited for Brian to get in; I wasn't mad that I didn't have my movie Contact, I'm mad that Brian didn't get it me in the first place. 

Oh Brian you are going to have to face the consequences of this and I have the perfect idea up my sleeve. 

Brian soon got in the car and he started it up; he backed out of his drive and drove down into LA. 

I stared out of the window; looking at all the amazing buildings that I've never really had the chance to admire. 

I felt Brian take my hand in his and I smiled when I felt a surge of love course through me; I turned back to the window but this time I closed my eyes and let the nice breeze relax me. 

A/N Sorry I had to put in the movie 'Contact' to make it officially Trixya.