I'm Lost Without Your Love (Trixya)

Chapter 10- Put Contact Back/I Care and I Love You

(Trixie's POV)

I woke up in the same place where I fell asleep hours ago, on the couch and wrapped in Brian's favourite blanket. 

I'm still in despair that I've discovered Brian's drug addictions and I just don't know how to talk to him about it. 

I sat up on the couch and wiped the sleep out of my eyes; I need to get through to Brian somehow, gentle but calm. 

"Morning beautiful" I saw Brian walking downstairs "morning gorgeous" I smiled and stood up from the couch, following him into the kitchen. 

"How are you this morning" he asked as he put the kettle on "I'm okay I guess" I said as I opened the fridge to find some food but all I saw was an empty one. 

"You sure you're okay, you seem distance" Brian asked with concern within his voice "I'm fine but I'm concerned for the lack of food we have" I laughed a little turning to him; he walked over and starting laughing. 

"I see where you're coming from" he smiled and wrapped his arms around my waist "well, least we have something to do today instead of lazing around in the house" I smiled as I wrapped my arms around him, kissing his head. 

"Aw, but I don't want to go anywhere today" Brian whined as he let go of me and went to make some coffees. 

"Well if we don't then we will starve" I said closing the fridge laughing at him "oh well" Brian laughed not giving a shit whether we die of hunger or not. 

"You are a pain in the ass you know" I laughed "I don't care baby because you still love me regardless" he smiled and put two cups of coffee in front of us. 

"Regardless I do still love you but on a serious note, we need food" I said "why can't you go by yourself and I stay here and chill" he asked; I suddenly felt a stabbing pain through my heart. 

What if the reason why he doesn't want to come with me is because he wants to relapse. 

"No, you have to come with me because I'm terrible at shopping" I said trying not to make myself sound suspicious.

"You terrible at shopping, I've seen your grocery shop and its anything but terrible" he laughed taking a sip of his coffee "go on, you'll be fine going on your own and this means I can go back to sleep" he smiled I sighed. 

I can't risk allowing Brian to stay here on his own when he knows he has his drugs in sight. 

I can't risk coming back and seeing him overdosed; should I tell him now or just wait until the right time to tell him. 

"Baby, please come shopping with me, I don't want to go by myself" I whined wrapping my arms around his waist he sighed and laughed.

"If you want me to go this bad then fine but I don't know why you're making this a big deal" he laughed and finished the last of his coffee "yeah, thank you baby" I smiled and kissed his cheek. 

"I'm gonna get ready since you're all ready for the day" I laughed and grabbed my coffee, walking upstairs to get into some clothes. 

I need to get this weight off my shoulders; I need to tell him that I know about his little box and that I don't want him to relapse. 

I don't want him to relapse but at the same time; I need to tell him that I know and reassure him that he doesn't need the drugs, just me. 

I put my coffee on my side draw and walked into my closet, pulling out some jeans and a Katya shirt. 

I walked back into the bedroom and picked out some socks and boxers from the draws. 

I got changed into the clothes I had picked for the day and sat down upon the bed, grabbing my coffee.