The one

will you?

I woke up a few hours later at around 6, after a rather restless night. I still felt as if I was in a daze. Last night I had forgiven him, still half drunk and broken hearted. I had said stuff to him, confessing how much I needed him, and I wish I hadnt. Then, of course, we had sex. And I reeeeeally wish we hadnt.  I was up before Jake and went into the kitchen, still in my black silk robe and sat at the table, drinking coffee and watching the sun rise out the big glass windows. I was in my own day dream as Jake came up behind me, setting his hands on my shoulders. I jumped at his touch, then set my coffee down and got up

"Jake about last night.." I started to say but he cut me off

He had a big smile on his face and looked relieved, "It was great Jane" he said, making me tense up, "I-I didnt think you were going to come back honestly. I know what I did was unforgivable and my heart broke into a million pieces when you got out of that limo. The past week, no ever since we broke up I havent been able to feel anything, Ive been in a never ending daze thinking about you. you are everything to me and I dont tell you that enough Babe" He said coming closer to me and grabbing my waist

I bit my lip stopping my words. I wanted to tell him that I didnt fully forgive him, and I wasnt sure I ever could. But what he just said must of taken all the courage in the world to tell me, and there was no way I could break him again. He hugged me, his strong arms pulled  around my neck. The warmth of his body made me feel safe, like old times. I loved him. I loved him so fucking much that I couldnt leave him, and I couldnt be with him. He pulled away and gave me that smile that won me over in science the first day of senior year. 

"I dont know.." I said looking down, feeling water works coming back

Jake put his hands around mine and sat us down on the couch

"Listen Jane" He said, his eyes wide, "I hurt you. I did probabley the worst thing I could of done out of no where and I know that you dont want to forgive me, and If I were you I probabley wouldnt either. But I cant just sit here and let you go" he said shaking his head, "Its been 4 years baby. This relationship is the only thing I have, the only things that matters. We have been through so much together, this is just a small bump in the road Babe" He said, putting his soft hand on my chin, "I need you Jane, thats an understatement. If you leave me again Im not sure what I will do" 

I looked up and gave him a small smile. Im tired of being the bad guy. Deep down, fuck not even deep down, I want Jake. I want to live with him for the rest of my life, to have him forever. Hes here, in front of me, looking at me with so much love and pain in his eyes and I cant even describe the emotions piling, and piling in my mind. Its really overwhelimg, how much you can love someone. 

"I love you" I said

Three words. Those simple three words changed Jakes entire expression. His eyes lite up and a smile came across his face as he leaned in to kiss my forehead.

"It wont be easy, but it will be worth it" I said giving him a smile

"Jane I have an idea" he said with such eager

I laughed at how excited he was "and whats that?" 

He paused, smiled then said, "Lets get married." 

I started laughing then stopped when I saw how serious he looked, "Wait really?" I asked

He nodded, "We are almost 21, we have lives together since we were 18 Jane, basically a married couple. I know for certain that I will never love another woman like I love you, other girls dont grab my attention, only you do. Im in love with you and want to spen the rest of my life with you" 

I looked at him shocked. "Jake of course"

He smiled wide, "Are you sure?" 

I nodded, "I knew we would end up getting married anyways, I couldnt live with out you Jay" I smiled

He got up of the couch, motioned for me to wait here and ran into his bed room. I patiently waited on the couch, a little nervous. He came back holding a black velvet box, making me cover my mouth. He really wanted to do this.

"Jake" I said in awe

He walked in front of me, smiling wide. He got down on one knee, making a few tears fall down my cheeks.

"Jane, you are the love of my life, and I would be so honored to be able to call you my wife. Will you marry me?" He asked, then opened the box revealing the most gorgeous ring I had ever seen.

I gasped and started to cry a little from joy. The red was different, it had a bright red ruby on a gold band and white diamonds around it. He slid it on my finger, then kissed me.

"This ring was my grand mothers, she and I were really close and she gave me it just before she died when I was 15. She told me to only give it to one girl, the girl I was certain was perfect for me. Who I really, really loved. And thats you Jane Sivaj."

I beamed at him, "You have no idea how proud I am to be your soon to be wife" I said laughing, then gave him a strong kiss.

"Shall we go suprise our friends? Nicks already called me twice today" He laughed, as I grabbed his hand pulling him up

"Im suprised you two arent getting married" I joked, making him punch me playfully.

We got dressed, I put on a pleated floral mini dress and nude heels, going make up free and Jake got in some casual dress wear. We got into the elevator, hand in hand, smiling at each other.

"My grandmother would be so proud of me" He said

I raised my brow, "Why" I laughed

"Because I eneded up with you"