I Love You Too Much to Let Go || ksj [COMPLETED]

Chapter 38

SeokJin's POV

When we practiced, I was getting tired much easier than usual.

Then the next day, I was starting to get dizzy the more we danced. This may have been from my lack of sleep, while Im doing a lot of activites. When practice ended, Tae noticed I seemed only the slightest bit of pale. "Hyung, Are you okay?" Taehyung asked, I nodded but he still had a concerned look on his face. I guess Im really bad at hiding it. "Ah, Im hungry" The others groaned. "This is only your break, you can go buy food but afterwards you will dance again," Manager Hyung said, looking at his watch. The others nodded and immediately started asking each other what theyll buy. I went to them and they looked at me with wide eyes. "Hyung, you're pale!" "Jin Hyung, we're gonna go out to buy food, we'll get you some too and maybe buy you medicine again. Stay here with manager hyung!" Jungkook said. I couldnt do anything but nod, they repeatedly asked if Im okay with it then went dashing out to leave. Now, I was left in the practice room with our hyung.

They shouldnt take long, but I dont wanna sit here in silence!

Hyung seems down. His hand has some surgical tape around it too, something must have happened. The tape spreads from his hand to nearly his entire arm. It looks serious. I have to cheer him up! Since Taehyung and Jhope, our two sources of light, arent here, I want to make him feel better.
"Hyung, are you okay?" he looked at me then looked back down. "..Yeah," he replied.
Cr*p, what do i say now? I was expecting him to look at me and say no. "..Uhmm... Are you sure, Hyung?" he looked at me with a somewhat annoyed expression this time. "I said yeah"
Oops.. I dont wanna make hyung mad.
Maybe if I tell him I know theres something wrong he'll tell me. "But hyung I can te--" I came closer to him as i spoke, but I had almost tripped and by reflex I held onto his arm. "ARGGGHH!! Dumb*ss! No! theres nothing wrong! Cant you understand that? How dumb could you possibly be!? Maybe thats why you just became a mere idol, because you lack the brains to do anything else!" I just wanted to make hyung feel better. I'm getting angry at this..! "Is it my fault I was worried about you? If you have that much of a big problem to look that depressed then I guess you deserved it!--"

It all happened so fast.
I replayed the words i said in my head while my head hung to the side from the force hyung and put into his hand, to my face.
He had just slapped me.
The stylist noona's just happened to come by then. "Oh my-- what happened??" one of them came in with a worried expression. "Yah!" another came in shoouting at manager hyung. "I knew it was you! your voice and the tone of aggression, I just knew you were picking another fight!" the stylist noonas had just saved me. If they hadnt come in, I wouldnt be able to handle it anymore. Knowing this is a room whos surveillance cameras just broke recently and havent been repaired-- I would have already fought back.
Just then, I felt like I could rely on someone.
Even if ever that would be the only time I would have my back saved by our makeup artists. I want to repay our noonas, even if they just heard what was happening by chance.