I Love You Too Much to Let Go || ksj [COMPLETED]

Chapter 8

SeokJin

When we arrived in the building I tried to walk side by side with them, seeing if they push me away it means theyre still angry but if they dont, then its safe to talk to them, but in the middle of walking to the practice room I realized; No, ofcourse they wouldnt push me away even if theyre angry with me. They still respect me as their hyung and I doubt they can just do that to me. Although, I dont know if what theyre currently doing is still counted as 'respect'.

When we went into the room my first mission was to get Hoseok to come to me without getting mad. He has a loud voice so if I impress him, he'll go Wah, Daebak!! and they'll all come closer. I kept thinking of ways to call his attention but I decided I was taking too long and wanted this over with-- "Hoseok-ah,".
He turned around and raised his eyebrows. "I-Is this the right way to dance this part..?" F*ck why am I nervous?? He came up to me and breathed a laugh. He looked like he wanted to say something, but couldnt. What, whats wrong..??
"uhm.. Hyung..." Did I do something wrong? "Wow, that was terrible," I heard Yoongi say with a laugh, when I turned my head towards him, he immediately looked away and pretended he was saying that to something else. My heart suddenly sank because I had an idea of what Hoseok was trying to say.
"..Thats... Uh, Hyung, it should be like this" Hoseok then started dancing. This.. Its completely different from what I did! From the hand gestures to the feet movements, everything I practiced were completely wrong..!!
My feelings were a mess. I was embarassed because I was so proud, angry because I could hear everyones laughter, and felt bad because I worked so hard. How could I have been practicing the wrong choreography the whole night..? I wasnt sure how I was feeling. I just felt terrible. I wanted to get out of this situation. Hoseok just stood in front of me and looked worried because I just stared at him, quiet. He was saying something, I saw his lips move and he had a concerned expression. Though everything, Hoseoks voice, the music, their laughter, it was all white noise. I didnt want to make this even more embarassing for myself. I wanted to walk out, but that would make it worse. I tried my best to make a normal expression again. "Ohh, I see," I said, trying to blurt out a laugh, "Wait wait wait, do it again, it really still isnt clear to me. Sorry, Hoseok, I know its getting annoying for you." I was really trying to smile and act natural. But the part where I said sorry was sincere, Im embarassed to keep asking help of him. I know I'm a burden, and as the eldest Hyung, they despise me because I should be the one helping them.