I Love You Too Much to Let Go || ksj [COMPLETED]

Chapter 49

SeokJin's POV

I woke up with tears in my eyes.
Ah.. Did I have a bad dream?
Suddenly, sad thoughts came rushing into my head.
I remembered all the times I felt bad. All the times my members made me feel bad.
I.. I am their Hyung. Their eldest Hyung. They shouldnt disrespect me like this, I shouldnt let them disrespect me like this. Always, everytime I get angry I hold it in and try not to show it because if they realize im mad theyd think Im sensitive. A Hyung with short temper. I didnt want them to think that of me and I didnt want them to be angry with me. Im always holding back. I want someone to vent to.. I want someone to understand me. I want someone that would listen and not think Im too dramatic. I want to be able to show my true feelings.

I dont want to keep it all inside.

I remember.. I remembered my dream, very slightly. All I know is, my members left me. They left me without hesitation after I told them how I felt, just once. While Im here, keeping them satisfied with my smile. No one has understood my tears. I always rejected the idea of leaving them no matter how hard it is for me. How could they do it so easily?

I cried in my bed for a long time after I woke up.

I hope they never do that to me,

I shouldnt let them.