shattered

chapter 12

-Adam-

"One" I started counting for us to jump, I looked at her trying to find any signs of regret or fear, but i found none. 

"Two" she was looking down at the water, her eyes held so much anxiety but I couldn't figure out for what, I couldn't tell if she was anxious to get this over with, or if she was anxious about doing the whole thing and was overthinking it, but I couldn't find fear in her eyes. 

I intertwined our fingers and held her hand tight reassuringly, I leaned in hesitantly and kissed her cheek, her eyes widened out of shock. I moved my lips to her ears and whispered "three". and we jump. 

-Rose- 

We were literally flying in the air, hand in hand, my eyes were wide open taking in what I was seeing. I see the water coming closer and closer but it's not close enough,I feel the air hitting my face and body, I feel Adam's hand tighten around my own afraid I would let. 

With every second passing I see the water more clearly, I can't wait for the hit of water but I'm afraid I will never get out of it. 

When I see that it's finally time to fall into the water, I glance at Adam to see him already closing his eyes and so I closed them too, and in a split second I was already deep in the water. 

Waterwas cold and prickling on my skin, my mind and body are completely off and I let the water move me around, unable to move myself. 

I feel the wild waves move me left and right, move me deep down to the bottom but it's not lifting me up, not once. I was out of breath so I started swimming up to the surface again.

I got to the surface of the water and gasped loudly, trying to take my breath but my eyes were still closed. 

"Holy shit..that was AWESOME" I hear Adam say and laugh loudly and I couldn't help but laugh with him when I opened my eyes. 

"Are you kidding me?? that was MORE than just awesome"  I said still laughing, he started swimming to where I was.

"See? I told you it's gonna be okay." He said when he was standing, or swimming whatever, beside me. 

"Yeah yeah whatever." I said backing away from him, refusing to admit that he was right. I started swimming the other way when his hand circled around my wrist. 

"Hey were do you think you're going?" He asked, I tried to pull my hand out of his grip but it was tight so I just gave up on that.

"Swimming duh, where can I ever go in this wide space of water??" I said sarcastically with a smirk on my face. 

"I could think of a place." and the next thing I knew I was pulled down into the water by him, and he kept pushing me down. I tried to push him off of me but he was too heavy. How heavy could a guy in his age be? what does he eat?  

I finally pushed him off and got to surface so fast that even I was amazed by how I did that.

"WHAT THE FUCK ADAM!" I shouted at him, I tried, really tried to stay angry at him but..well ya know. 

"What? you asked a question and I answered, well actually showed you the answer but it's the same thing." He was freaking smiling. but then again it was funny so I can't really blame him..

"So you decided to freaking drown me." I splashed water in his face and he winced. 

"HEEEEYYYY that's not fair!" he said loudly. "I don't give a damn." I said and continued showering him with the salty water around us. 

We spent the next couple of hours like that, just laughing, playing around,enjoying the water and the atmosphere around us. 

I was floating on my back on the water when Adam said. "Why don't you just move out?" He was moving around with no particular reason just floating around.

I was silent for a little bit and taken aback by his question. "I can't." I mumbled.

"But why? you're 19 so you're practically an adult and can live on your own, so why not?" 

"It's not that easy you know." I stood straight on the sand so I could look at him when I speak. 

"For me to move out I need alot of money to buy the apartment and the furniture, and even if I rent an apartment I'll still need alot of money and I don't have that. My job won't really be a great help I don't make that much money, I just work so I could stay outside of the house more and I won't have to ask him to get me stuff because i know he won't--" he cut me off by saying. 

"Wait, you have a job?" "Yeah, I work in the library across the waffle shop." I said

"I didn't know that." He said. "Well now you know."

"so, anyway, I have to live in that damn house for I don't know how long, or at least until I have the enough money to help me move out." 

His eyes held so much sympathy which I absolutely hated. I hate when people sympathize me because it just reminds me of how weak I am against my own father and against everything else. 

"Stop looking at me like that." I said. "Like what?" "THAT. Like THAT, with sympathy and pity in your eyes I don't need you to feel sorry for me." 

"That's not sympathy Ro" He said. I was going to ask what is it but I decided not to. 

"Whatever, can we go back up??" I asked him, already moving to go on the shore and back up to get our clothes. 

"Hey why are you mad at me now?" I was walking fast on the sand when he came running to me and put his hand on my shoulder to stop me. 

"I'm not mad just.." I didn't know what to say because I actually don't know why I was mad. 

"Look just forget it okay? I'm fine really. Let's just go because I'm starving." I said with a small reassuring smile, but he didn't move he just stood there looking at me for a few seconds. 

"Okay fine let's go." He finally said and then we went up to where we left our clothes.

We got dressed and headed to the car. I check the time in my phone and it was still 10 pm which is good now.

"Wanna eat in Mcdonalds?" He asked, starting the car. "Sure, who could say know to that?" I smiled. 

The car ride was silent, nothing but the radio was making some noise. I looked at the window and just stared at the sky, watching the moon with the stars hovering around it, when I thought back to when Adam kissed my cheek earlier before we jumped in the water and I smiled to myself. "What?"

I blushed and refused to look at him. "Nothing." he looked at me and smirked. Does he know what I was thinking about? But what if he does? Dang it.

I turned my head back to the window when a crazy idea came to me. So I opened the window and started to somewhat stand in the car so I can get my head out of the window. 

"ROSE WHAT THE FUCK GET BACK IN HERE." Adam shouted and I laughed to myself but that did not stop me. I stood up with my upper body out of the window my hair flying and the wind crashing on my face and it felt amazing. 

I put my head back in the car and said, "Raise the volume I love that song" 

"You my lady, are insane." He said with a chuckle and I laughed."Said the guy who just convinced me to jump of a cliff" He was the one to love this time "But I like that craziness of yours." He said that and raised the volume. 

And so here I was, standing out of a moving car's window, hair flying in the wind, hold me down by Halsey blasting in my ear, laughing loudly like a crazy woman with a guy I just met a couple days ago in the car. That's just life the way I want to live it.