(De-Leñdrez Series #1) Chasing The Star

Prologue

#ChasingthestarPrologue

"Do you need anything?" he asked in a formal way.

What the fck, ever since I love everything about him, hanggang ngayon pala. But this time its hunt me. The more I'm with him, the more na sumasakit.

"Still I needed to talk to you." I told him. The side of his lips rose and just sighed.

Kelan niya ba ako kakausapin ng matino, iyong tulad ng dati, at hindi tulad ngayon na parang clients niya lang ako.

His so cold.

I knew it was all my fault, but what the fck all my life was being in hell dahil siya lang iyong inaalala ko. Nabuhay ako na siya iyong nasa isip ko.

"My secretary didn't tell me that we have an appointment." He said.

Umiling ako.

"Does it matter?--" he cut me off and stared at me. I was drown, and now I'm drowning again. Kelan ba ako masasanay sa mga tingin niyang iyan?

"It really does, I don't talk unless you had an appointment with me." Sabi niya at tumayo sa kinauupuan niya.

What?!
Huminga akong malalim bago siya hinatak para humarap sa akin.

He face me, its enough to destroy everything that I planned. The way he look at me was ready to eat me alive.

"What!?" he grunted.

I knew he has the right to be mad at me, I was really unforgivable. I deserve that, but all I want was him to know my reasons behind it all.

"I did..." I trailed. "I already set an appointment to you, pero kinausap mo ba ako? You didn't even come to see me, lagi mo akong iniiwasan,.." I paused kasi pakiramdam ko bumabalik na naman iyong sakit, lahat nang mga nangyari dati bumabalik.

Natatakot akong maiyak sa harap niya.

Siya lang ba yung nasaktan? I was already in pain and up until now! So he could be para ipamukha na wala na ako sa kanya ngayon.

Tanggap ko naman na wala na ako dyan sa puso nya, but I need this to be done. Para hindi na ako masaktan ng paulit-ulit sa nakaraan.

"Are you even a clients or an investor for me to talk to you?"

I screwed up! Hindi naman siya ganito dati.

"None of the above, but please talk to me like im a human." I told him pero huminga lang siya ng malalim.

Dati alam ko naman iyong lugar ko, pero ngayon hindi ako naorient na wala na pala akong lugar.

Hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang beses na akong nagpabook ang appointment para sa kanya, but if he found out na ako iyon, agad niyang kina-cancel or worst hindi siya sisipot at hahayaan niya akong mag-antay sa kanya. Alam ko naman na gusto niya akong saktan pero wala akong ginawa para saktan siya dati.

"Can you just leave my office?!" sabi niya at tinuro iyong pintuan.

"I'll never leave unless we talked!" I adamantly told him.

He knew me, makulit ako. But I was trying my luck here para hindi siya mainis at ipadampot ako sa mga security guard.

"Tsk,"

"Bat ba ang tigas ng puso mo?" I asked kaya kumunot iyong noo niya. Hindi ko maipinta.

"You made me this, Why I am being sorry for the monster you made?" Nanuyo iyong lalamunan ko.

Ang sakit..

Isang malaking sampal ito sa akin.

"please hear me out, I promise I'll leave if you--" he cut me off dragging my arms.

"Still you leave, right?" Sabi niya na nakataas ang kilay.

Nakakatakot siya.

"You told me to leave, so I did." Sabi ko but he laughs sarcastically.

"Kapag mahal mo, hindi mo iiwan." Sabi niya.

Bakit ba kasi ang bilis ko siyang sukuan dati? Bakit hindi ko kasi siya pinakinggan? Bakit mas pinakinggan ko iyong sarili ko? E di sana okay pa kami ngayon.

Hindi agad ako nakasagot kaya siya iyong nagsalita. "If I was mistaken correct me." Tinignan ko siya ng masama.

Nagbabadya na namang tumulo iyong luha na kanina ko pa pinunasan.

"A-akala ko, napatawad mo na ako." Sabi ko I was about to leave pero nagsalita siya.

"Suko kana? Ang bilis naman? Well baka nga hindi mo ako minahal noon." Sabi niya ngunit patuloy pa din na tumutulo iyong luha ko.

I looked at him.

He felt pity on me, who weren't feel it? Para akong tanga dito.

"L-lance..." I call out his name feeling ko bawat letra ay may tinik na sumasabit sa dila ko.

Tinignan niya ako. "Engr. Trisvalles, Miss de-Leñdrez. " he corrected.

Huminga ako ng malalim. "Fine, Engr. Trisvalles."

I said as i catch my breath, parang may tinik na bumabara sa lalamunan ko tuwing titignan niya ako na parang ang sama sama ko all my life.

"I don't want to see you're face..." Sabi niya sakin looking straight to my eyes.

Bat ba ako naiiyak? Hayup na mga luha to, I prepared of what was he doing to me. Pero iba pala pag kaharap ko na siya, nawala iyong mga script ko.

Tinignan ko siya, my tear fell. Sht. Ang sakit. Iyong mga mata niya purong galit na lang ang nakikita ko. "D-did I cross in your mind once a while?" tanong ko-hindi ko alam kung bakit ba lumabas sa bibig ko iyon. Alam ko naman na ang sagot niya.

Umiling ko, nang hindi agad siya sumagot.

"J-just don't answer it, I already knew." I said as I turn my back to him.
Hindi ko na kailangan pang makita iyong mga mata niya. His brazenly I could see right thru his eyes na purong galit na lang ang meron siya sa akin.

I was about to glanced him for the last time and to close the door when he hold it. "Just to answer you..." he trailed looking to my eyes.

I was waiting for his answer, but my heart jump in and out from my chest. "You, never cross in my mind, since then." Sabi niya at siya na iyong nagsarado ng pinto.

I hold my cry not to get attention. I was slowly walking, hoping that he'd follow me and give me a hug. Because for goodness sake. I really miss him! I really miss his hugs and kisses. How he caressed me. I miss those everything about him! But i know hindi na iyon mangyayari dahil hanggang sa makalabas ako ng building ay walang Lance---Engr. Trisvalles iyong nakasunod sa akin.

You, never cross in my mind, since then.

Never...

And tears falled down streaming to mg cheeks.