(De-Leñdrez Series #1) Chasing The Star

Chapter 31

#ChasingTheStar31

To Lance:

Hi Lance, if you're reading this now. I'm probably on plane going to Barcelona. Sorry because i wasn't meet you. It was just fast. Dad called me saying i have my flight. It was so crazy but i can't ditch dad. I'm sorry.

About our talk? Lance. I know it was so creepy! It was hilarious. Pero hindi ko alam eh. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ikaw pa na best friend ko. Hindi ko alam kung kelan nagsimula to. Basta ang alam ko na lang nahulog na pala ako sayo. Sinubukan kong alisin sa isip ko pero lalo lang lumalala eh! Hate me because of this. I know i deserve it. But please still talk to me. I know you've rejecting me and ending our friendship. Remember when you said 99 percent gets friend-zone? Natakot ako nun. Kaya gusto kong sabihin sayo agad tong nararamdaman ko para makapagsimula ulit ako ng bagong buhay, and it's unloving you.

See you in a month, Kulot. I've already missing you! Take care ha.

-Faith.

I can't count kung ilang beses na akong huminga ng malalim. I was silently drumming my finger to my lap. My flight would 30 minutes from now.

And i knew Lance wasn't still read it. My phone already turned off.

I was seating on a departure area.

Can't help but to be helpless. Why dad booked a ticket without me knowing it? I hate how his mind running!

I didn't even told to Erin na aalis ako, pero bahala na ipapaliwanag ko na lang sa kanya ang lahat pagbalik ko at bibilhan ko siya ng maraming pasalubong.

I can imagine how the hands on clock running and i even heard how it's sounds like.

God Lance. You probably hate me because of this. Left without talks. I hate it! I really hate this!

Isa-isa ng tinatawag ang flight number namin and it's my turn. I just looked around for one last time to see kung andito ba siya. Pero wala!

I leave a heavily breathe before stepping inside.

God, i can feel that i was far away from him!

Gusto kong bumaba pero hindi ko magawa.

Dad would get mad at me! But Lance would hate me for being left him behind!

When the plain was already ready, i heard at the intercom na we're going to fly.

I close my eyes before finally looking for my chair. Kanina pa ako nakatayo kasi gustong-gusto ko talaga na bumaba pero may pumipigil sa akin!

Nagtanong ako sa flight attendant kung saan banda yung seat number ko. She even lead me to it and point my chair. Sa tabi ako ng bintana. And there was a guy at my side. Nakatakip ang mukha niya ng dyaryo.

Ang bilis naman nitong matulog.

Para siyang may kapareho sa mga suutan niya, but never mind. It couldn't be Lance! His not here.

And if ever his here, where did he knew about this? About the time of my flight?

I get some magazine pero hindi mapakali yung isip ko kaya tumingin ako sa bintana.

I see everything very small, the lights of the building sending me a warm. Kahit ano sigurong sigaw ni Lance dyan sa baba. Hindi ko siya maririnig pa. At kung sinubukan niyang humabol. Huli na siya.

It's too late to say goodbye.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla akong napa-iyak dahil sa mga naiisip ko. Yung moment na magkasama kami palagi ni Lance. Yung pinapatawa niya ako. Yung iniinis niya ako. Sobrang linaw ng mga pangyayari. Sobrang bilis lang pala talaga ng bawat araw. Hindi ko akalain na tapos na ang isang sem. Sobrang bilis lang talaga. Hindi ko akalain na ang dating little crush ko sa kanya ay mas lumalim pa. In-love na ako sa best friend ko.