(De-Leñdrez Series #1) Chasing The Star

Chapter 02

#ChasingTheStar02

It was an awesome Monday, and I only have 1 month to buried myself in school stuffs.

Isang linggo na ako dito sa Pilipinas, still I miss Canada it's like 'canada is my happy place.
Kanina pa ako gising at nakatitig lang sa kisame. Tinatamad pang bumangon iyong katawan ko.

I heard a knocked on the door kaya bumangon ako at pinagbuksan ko iyon.

"Mom?" I asked the door was swung open.

"Good morning, Baby--" pinagkunutan ko sya ng noo. "Fine... I'm trying to cheer up your day." Sabi nito at pumasok sa kwarto ko.

"What do you want, Ma?" I asked following her inside my room.

"You're picture frame should be put here." Sabi niya at tinuro iyong wall.

I breath, it was an early in the morning. Should she eat first before doing something that doesn't concern her.

"I know, Ma. I can't just put it because i have not in the good mood." Paliwanag ko sa kanya.

Tinignan nya ako at umupo sa sofa. "I know you're still mad at me because i decides for you and not consulting your side..." sabi niya at humingang malalim.

"Ma, i told you its okay with me as long as it's the best for me." I told her it's been a week she's not still over it. Isang linggo na kami dito sa Pilipinas at kung ayoko talaga sa plano nya 'dapat hindi na ako sumama sa kanya dito. But here I am.

"I know Safi, but you can't get rid the concern in me. Lalo na at you always did saying its okay but your body wasn't saying it okay." Mom used to call me Safi. Pinagsama niya iyong unang letter sa pangalan ko. Sanay na din ako dito.

"Mom whether i can get mad, I was already here in the Philippines. I have no choice at all. Ikaw iyong nagpapa-aral sa akin, I should've follow you." Sabi ko. I don't want her to get disappointed.  She used to seen me an accountant. I should follow her footsteps.

"You could still have a choice, Baby. It's not too late. I'm not forcing you to do what i was saying---" I cut her off.

"Ma, I want this." Sabi ko.

I wanted to be CPA also, but i also wanted Kevin is with me, but as much as i want it can't be happen.

Ngumiti si Mama. "I'd like to hear that from you, Safi..." sabi niya and cupped my face. "I love you, Baby." And she hugged me. I hug her too.

Nagpaalam na si Mama 'na baba muna siya at mag-aasikaso sa sarili niya.

Humiga ulit ako sa kama at pinagmasdan na naman ang kisame. Aren't this is i want? Hindi ba ako napipilitan lang?

I couldn't answer myself.

I heavily breath.

"Ma, where are you going?" She looked at me.

"I'm going to Embassy, Baby..." tugon nito at hinalikan ako sa pisngi at umalis na.

"Alam mo naman ang Mama mo, maraming appointments." Yaya Mary said and give me the smiled.

"I knew it." I said at saka naupo sa couch

Sobrang aga pa para mainis ako ng ganito. Kelan ba ako hindi nasanay sa ganitong set-up? Yes i have my family they were never fighting, But I felt like i was not belong to them. May kanya-kanya silang paraan sa pamumuhay and I'm not part of that anymore.

When I'm in canada, Mom's always wasn't with me, palagi siyang nasa trabaho niya. Kung saan saan bansa siya pumupunta. Hindi ko nga alam kung pamilya pa kaming matatawag.