Nicotine: the sequel to 'The Ballad Of Brallon'

Sarah Smiles

Brendons pov:

After Dallon leaves I head to the cafeteria for lunch. I sit down by myself and all of the girls rush over to surround me. They all start asking me questions about myself, Dallon, me and Dallon, Panic! I lay my head in my arms. I get called up to get in line. I'm finally able to breathe. When I go to head to back to my seat I see a girl in the far right hand corner of the room. Instead of sitting back where I was I seat by the girl in the corner.

"Hi I'm Brendon," I say to her reaching out my hand to shake hers. She shakes my hand and says, "I'm Sarah." "Why are you sitting all the way over hear by yourself?" I ask. "The other girls don't like me," she points her fork at the group of girls that were surround in me. I notice her moving her food around on her plate not eating any of it.

I sit down by Sarah and ask, "Why don't they like you?" "Because," she looks at me then at her food and sighed, "Because I don't eat." Suddenly I no longer feel bad for myself. She asks why I'm in here. "Everyone's got a story," she asks, "So why are you in here and why are the other girls so obsessed with your every move?" I laugh and say, "Obsessed is a huge understatement. I'm here because my boy-fiance," I correct myself, "was shot and kidnapped. He was missing for a couple months until we found him almost," I try my hardest to hold back my tears but it's not working. "We found him almost beaten to death," I continue, "at the place my ex worked at. I've been having severe nightmares because of it and I tried to kill myself in my sleep." 

Sarah stares at me with her mouth open and apologizes to me for what happened. "It's not your fault," I tell her. She tells me I never told her why the other girls are all drooling over me. "I mean you're obviously gay or you wouldn't be on our unit," she says. I laugh at how ironic she sounded and the tell her, "I'm the lead singer of the band 'Panic! At The Disco'," "Omg! No way I'm a huge fan!" She says. I start to regret my decision when she says, "I'm totally kidding I've never heard of that band, and if I did, who cares you're just a person like the rest of us."

I finally found a reason to leave my room. Sarah was the only girl here that I could talk to that treated me normal.