Nicotine: the sequel to 'The Ballad Of Brallon'

Planning

Brendons pov:

Dallon has been very distant since the night of his birthday. I try to apologize to him more times than I can count. Everytime he replies, it's ok, or it's alright, or I liked it. I just don't believe him. 

Zack comes over to my place to plan our 'This Is Gospel' tour. I ask Dallon if he wants to help. He shakes his head and says he wants to go for a walk. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I love the guy doesn't that count towards anything.

As we plan the tour I tell Zack I also want to plan me and Dallons wedding into the schedule. I wish Dallon could be here with me for this. We've been talking about the wedding non stop. Where and when it's gonna be, what we're going to wear, most importantly song choice. 

I told Dallon I wanted our first dance should be to the song 'Nicotine'. Nicotine was the first song I wrote about Dallon when he went missing. It was about being addicted to someone that you can't have. I was so in love with him that it felt like I was having withdrawals of him. And, I was. The withdrawal was worse than anything I'd feel from nicotine. 

He agreed to that song. I start to cry without realizing it. It hurts seeing him act this way. We haven't had sex since the night of his birthday. I hate to let this thought cross my mind. But, what if it's because of Spencer that he's acting like this. What if he'd rather be with Spencer and not me.

I get so depressed thinking of us not being together which is why I need to focus on wedding planning. Once me and Zack figure out all of our tour stops he looks at me. He tells me it will be okay. Dallon would be an idiot not to marry you. He loves you. And you know what? If he breaks your heart I'll make sure he lives to regret it his entire life.

The things Zack tells me cheer me up a little bit. I snif and hug Zack. He can be a dick sometimes but he's a really good friend. I ask Zack if he'll be my best man. He laughs and says, "Sure but who will be my date?" I know the perfect girl. 

I punch a number into my phone and hit the call button. The phone rings a of couple times before a girl picks up. "Hello is this Demi Lovato? It's me Brendon I have a favor to ask you."