Nicotine: the sequel to 'The Ballad Of Brallon'

Let me go

*suicide warning I was bawling my eyes out just writing this. If you think you'll get triggered please don't read it and don't watch the video*

Dallons pov: 

While I get ready for my wedding I hear somebody walk in the room behind me. I freak out and turn around. At first I was thinking it was Brendon but when he started talking I knew it was the exact opposite. 

Spencer walks into my dressing room. "Oh how I miss seeing you naked," he sighs while staring at me. I have no idea what I should do. That's when, Spencer makes the first move. He pushes me onto the table. He wraps my legs around him. 

As he's start making out with me and touching me in all of the right places to make me moan. I say his name, pushing him off of me, "What the fuck! I'm getting married. I'm getting married to Brendon. He's the love of my life and I honestly can't see my life without him. I used to love you yes, but that was in the past. I've moved on and you need to too." 

When Spencer leaves I finish getting ready. I got to get ready to walk down the isle. As I start to see Brendon crying. I know he saw what I did. I try to apologize. But, that doesn't seem to work. Brendon yells at me then does something nobody would've seen coming. 

Brendon pulls a gun out of his pocket. I scream. "DON'T!" Before anyone can get to him he points the trigger at his head and shoots himself. I'm crying so hard. The room is so quiet it's deafening. It's almost as if it happened in slow motion. 

I watch Brendons lifeless body fall to the ground. I can't move. I am in complete and utter shock. It's as though my life left my body the same time Brendons did. The pain is so unbearable that if I feel it I'd die from being so heartbroken.

The ambulance get here and zip Brendon into one of those black body bags that they carry dead people away in. Someone walks up to me. I haven't moved not even a single twitch since Brendon shot himself in front of me. 

Remember when I said I can't see my life without him before the wedding? Well I wasn't lying. I honestly don't see the point in all of this anymore. Why should I continue on if I don't have Brendon. How will I be able to live knowing I'm the reason the love of my life killed himself.

 I don't want to do it anymore. I can't do it anymore. When the paramedic comes up to me I snap. Only internally for a second until they bring me onto the ambulance. Then I grab for a knife sitting in the ambulance next to me. 

I grab it before they can react and I slit my throat. I wanna be back with my Breny baby. One medic holds me down and ties me into restraints, the second one tries to stop the bleeding from my neck. 

"LET ME GO!" I scream choking on the blood seeping into my throat. "I WANT TO BE WITH BRENDON!" suddenly I feel a slight pinch from what appears to be a needle. They sedated me. My body goes completely numb and my eyes flicker shut.