Nicotine: the sequel to 'The Ballad Of Brallon'

Last thoughts

*suicide warning again don't read or watch the video if you think it might trigger you*

Brendons pov: 

I lift the gun to my head and shoot. I'm sick of suffering. It fucking hurts having all these thoughts in your head telling you how terrible of a person you are. And what's worse is finding out the thoughts are accurate.

I'm so sick of losing everyone I care about. Why am I not good enough. Why do they have to like you over me. What the fuck did I do wrong to deserve all of this hate. Why couldn't I have just been born normal. 

I'm so stupid. I'm fat. I'm ugly, I'm a fag, I'm worthless, I was a mistake, I'm dumb, I can't sing, I deserve to die. All of these thoughts run through my head as I pull the trigger. I deserve to die. It would only make things easier on everyone. 

As the bullet enters my head everything goes black. There was no pain what so ever. And one thing is for sure, I'm not coming back from this one. 

I love you Dallon